RECONNECT THE MOVIE - GLOBAL PREMIERE FT. Dennis McKenna, Jordan Peterson, Dorian Yates & More
We're, in a Dark, Age. We've. Lost start compass. We. Don't know who we are. We. Don't know where we want to go. Our. Own lives are an experience. Of inadequacy. And tension. We. Are a world dying, under. Anesthesia. For. Lack of, authentic. Connection. With, the living world out, of which, we. Came. What. Is to. Be done. My. Name is Brian rose and every. Day I speak with some of the greatest minds on the planet. Broadcasting. Messages of inspiration, to the world. Convincing. Myself that I'm, making a difference. But. When I look outside my studio I see. A very different picture. I see, a world divided. Angers. Separation. Growing. By the day. Insanity. The. Fires have spanned millions, of acres we, are nearing a point of no return. But. It's not just outside, it's. Also inside, me. Somehow. In this age of holter connectivity, I also. Feel separated. Something's. Missing, and. I can't figure out what it is. All. My life I tried to find happiness by, achieving thanks. I'm not sure why but. I always wanted, to be the best I. Mean. Who doesn't right. It's. All about performance. Success. Winning. Along. The way I met some interesting people and a. Few who, wanted to win even more than me I. Want. You to kill kill, kill kill. Run, towards a gun fire and kill them all. They. Pushed me to go even harder, and this, winning became. An obsession I believe. That we were put on this planet to be all we can be, see. I act, it's like it's the last two minutes of my last fucking Super, Bowl every. Fucking, hour of the, day I. Just. Wanted more and more and more. But. You can't deny it. Got some major results, this. London real I am Brian Road. And, everyone. Seem to love it. Yet. It also began, to take over my life. And. Sometimes I get the feeling that is, actually, making, things worse. Who. Knows what would have happened if I, didn't get that call. Hi. Bryan it's good to see you this. Is Dennis McKenna and a call from him means, things are about to get complicated. You. See Dennis is a leading scientist, in the study of psychedelics. Powerful. Mind-altering, chemicals. He. Has a different way of looking at things and radical.
Ideas About, how to change the world. We. Had some cool conversations, back in the day that, I had almost forgotten, about. You. Can think of psychedelics, as a scientific, instrument to. Explore. The range of consciousness. Psychedelics. Are dangerous. Not because there are dangerous. Drugs, it's, because they make you have dangerous ideas. They. Make you doubt, the. Program, and the. Agenda, of the. Uber. Class. This. Is a war on consciousness and, these plants, are our bio, weapons, the. Stars don't kill people ours, our, horse people will think okay. I've. Been working, with this new, retreat, center in Costa. Rica called salt era and, going. Down there next week and, I was thinking this is a chance for us to, reconnect. And, for you to. Re-experience. Ayahuasca. You know it's been a while. Ayahuasca. A. Plant. Medicine, that has been used by indigenous people, in the Amazon for, thousands of years the. Brew is a mixture of two plants, one. Of which contains DMT known. As the spirit molecule the. Most powerful mind-altering substance. Nature, is created. It's. Been six years since I last drank it and often. The effect is to give you an honest assessment of, exactly. What's wrong with you. Loud. And, clear. These. Medicines. Effectively. There are a reset. You, know of our perspective. I think your hard drive is a bit fright this. Will put it back together in a more functional, way I mean look I'm sure that there's, a lot I can learn from the medicine like I won't I won't, deny that but you. Know this, just seems to be too too, soon too crazy I just don't think I'm ready to just drop, everything this. Is more important, than what, you're doing right now by I can, almost guarantee. Dennis. Is obviously crazy. I can't, leave my business to go to the jungle for a week. Winners. Don't, take days off I. Like. Success. Doing. Deals and, doing. One after, another after another I. Mean. It's it's, an aphrodisiac. I'm. High on life I don't. Need the MTR ayahuasca, fuck Kauai that's all horseshit those are for losers. Let's. Face it psychedelics. Have always had a bad reputation, our. Culture tells us that they are dangerous drugs, that. They'll fry your brain make. You crazy and even. Jump. Out of windows. But. All of that is changing and, some. People are talking, about them differently, all. Ancient civilizations, were using, means to alter consciousness and, that, they were central, to some of the best and greatest achievements, that's, why they call them teacher. Plants, and then. We have our, society. That comes along it's, just this little blip, you know of a hundred years of high-tech, industrialized. Civilization and it, suddenly pronounces. That this whole human heritage is completely. Wrong maybe, we should be considering that the depth of human experience, is more than just material, things and technology and and and, our egos, I. Do. See. These, medicines. As, addressing, some of the big problems we face as a society. The. Environmental, crisis which, flows, from our disconnection. From nature, and. Tribalism. Which flows. From our disconnection. From people unlike ourselves. In. Both cases, I, think, it's very it's. Very ego, consciousness, in that we're objectifying, the, other which, once you objectify it you're free to exploit, it extract, it do whatever you, want it's gonna take some consciousness change to get us out of the box we're in. You. Know the evidence is, is there that these these. Compounds, used in the right professional. Way can. Be very helpful and so that's the thing you know what to do with this opportunity how, do you do it right. I just, wondered what, what do you think about psychedelics, and and what do they do and what do I have no idea what they do. What. We don't understand, about psychedelics, is a very thick book they. Bend the structure, of reality what. They reveal to me is how little we know about everything. That's. A terrifying thing. Something. To be investigated, further. With. Great risk. They. Can help you orient yourself morally. But. Look. The hell out. The. Truth is my. Work is, taking over my life it's. Becoming an addiction, an obsession. If. I continue like this, something's. Going to break I know. It. Going. On this trip is. My only chance to stop it. This. Movie is unlike, anything, we've ever done it's. A total lack of control which obviously. Makes me nervous in, three, days time I am, traveling to Costa Rica to participate, in three ayahuasca, ceremonies. And I think I've already forgotten how emotional. And. How emotionally, draining this experience, is gonna be you. Know the the, convulsions. The, purging. That. We. Literally are gonna see what mother, ayahuasca wants.
To Do with, me with. The show. With. The message out to the world so, this is her chance to broadcast. I'm looking forward to hanging out with Dennis it's, been a while and his. Brother Terence had, a major impact on me and, even though he died in 2000, his, recorded. Verse and poetic. Way of speaking is still, extremely, relevant, today. The. Key is the, psychedelic, experience that's. What makes the shaman, a shaman, that's what made the archaic. In fact, archaic. They prepare two people for. Transformation. It, gets, you used to the idea that. The world is not what it appears to. Be. We're, in San Jose Costa Rica, right now. Taking two flights and now we got a three-and-a-half hour drive ahead of us you, got an ayahuasca ceremony tomorrow. I think we'll get some sleep but. It's been a long-ass. There's, a scorpion in the house, there's, fire ants they're attacking the scorpion, it was like moths flying everywhere we're definitely in the jungle so look, we're here we're gonna get some sleep and then tomorrow is, the big night at the ceremony, but yeah planes trains and automobiles today, my, god. I was. Just thinking that in London you're not surrounded by, anything. In nature really there's a few parks so, it's easy to forget about it and not think that it really matters as long as your, uber. Comes on time and, your. Latte is ready and your organics eggs or coops for you but. Out here it's. Pretty damn, obvious that. The. Plants are in charge. Hi. How. Are you I guess. We're in the right spot right. You, sir, are, you with, proceed. Denis, thanks for having me here well. Thank you for coming um it's, great to see you here I kind, of never thought, we'd. Be sitting here together I mean I'm feeling a bit of trepidation as, it's, probably normal, it's absolutely, normal if you don't have butterflies in, your stomach you're not paying attention. And. So, what is your view on what's happening inside this, psychedelic experience. Well. The first thing to, get clear is I'm not here to tell you what's gonna happen I, mean what happens, will be what, happens between you, and the medicine, that's, always the way it is a good shaman. Their. Job is to set the setting, set the context, and step out of the way because. The real teaching. The real teacher is the medicine, in, their current language of. Neuroscience. What, do these things actually do, they. Disrupt. What. They call the default mode, Network, your. Ego, is. Shut. Up and you can open yourself up to all these other things that you, never, pay attention to, and then you realize wow, I'm missing a lot these are very important, in some ways more important, than what your your ego, and your default, mode, network, forces. You to look, at all the time we, say that you. Don't always get what you want with our Wasco, but you always get what you need. You. Can speak about your intentions, here. Anything. That's weighing. On you, whatever. You want wheeler to know because. Of course, this informs, him of where, you at in your in your journey and then, kind, of as he comes into the medicine space with you kind, of where he directs his energy the, kados, he chooses, and how he infuses, his intention, into, those songs. So. Wherever you'd like to begin. Okay. Yeah. Boy no snow she's, um. And, thank you for having us. My. Name's Brian I'm from London and. I'm. Just here to, to. Listen tonight and to. Get. Some feedback on. If. I'm doing the right things with my life and if I'm not, sometimes. I feel. You. Know anxious, and unappreciative. And things I have and so I'm, really open to anything that. Is. Told to me tonight. Ayahuasca. Know. Sorta less instrumenting, knows, a brief mr., creatine that, neutral. More donde. Cuando nosotros estamos perdido. He. Spiritual, mental, from the tenemos. This. Viedo Nostra maintain no same class as, connector, you. Know miss me. Antigua. Meant elusive Evo's no. Canossian, lo, que es la Palma Ceia Tierra.
Us. To form a seamstress Vitale's, los, árboles give a nice achieve las plantas. Conocimiento. Esta, IE y. Nosotros. Romantic, a IMO's a Toledo must be spirited Atlanta's, no. Blanton's. And say muchas, cosas nigga. It's, an important, aspect to bring to the ceremony is to just have faith in the plants in nature in the earth that, it has this, innate knowledge that it has this innate ability to, cure us of our ailments this was the original. Medicine. That, although the plants, take. Longer and sometimes the process is more challenging more difficult, that it actually cures. The. Roots cause it, doesn't just cover the symptoms. In. The ceremonies. And we like to do three. With. A day in between each one for, integration, and discussion. The first one just, the ayahuasca is within you and it is opening you up and it's just you getting friendly with it, skip. A day then the second time you take it that's one usually you're at the bottom of the abyss you. Know you get to plunge the depths, or. Reach, the heights depending. On what's happening but that's the that's the the. Primary experience and the, third one it's kind of the resolving. The. So. Um up and get them out you know put everybody, back together in, a whole place and ended. Up but that's just a metaphor yeah. All right Dennis thank you very much all right till our next conversation. Which I guess will be on the other side of the chrysanthemum. Mother. One. Oh. War. Zone by. Oh. Last. Night's ceremony was. Not what I expected. There. Was no pain for dark visions. Instead. I was, showing all the incredible, people in my life. And. How lucky I am. The. Lesson was simple but important. Something. That's easy to forget. Be. Grateful. Honor. What, you have and those, around you. I feel, the medicine inside me. Opening. Me up, unblocking. Me. Now. It was time to share my experiences, with the group in. Our first integration. Session. Today. We just wanted to talk a little bit about some. Tools that we can use to reflect. On our. Experiences, and. Kind of help, us move forward and start, thinking about. What. Things will be like when we go home. Integration. Means bringing. Things into. The whole person. When. You take. These lessons in. It's. Kind of a process to make sure that it comes into yourself. The. Hero's journal is designed, to take you through a self-reflective, process, of why you're here what's, going on for you. It. Takes you to preparing, for ceremony reflecting, on your ceremonies, I. Think. I've heard some of you already reframing. Some of the difficult, things you've gone through in ceremony. During. The integration session. Dennis, told me he had seen some disturbing, things last night. Well, my first ceremony was about gratitude, Dennis. Had a rougher time and. Was reminded that the world has real problems, I. Was. Wondering if you could share with us but, about the, ceremony you, had that was kind of one of them one, of the darker ones yes, and wouldn't, be the first time I have dark, dark. Ceremonies, they they do come up from time to time I probably. Have, an unhealthy, obsession. With current. Events and watching the news and getting further anxious. And depressed and, afraid. You, know and so. That sort of thing comes back on you in your session, it does on me and you, know my session. The. Scenario, it was a dystopian. Fantasy, it. Was like a vision, of what is happening in the world about, the darkest, and most pessimistic, way, you could look at. All. These things which are basically the diseases. Of our culture. You, know the diseases. Of individual, are the diseases, of the world, our. Culture, soul, is, severely. Wounded. We. Are in a planetary. Crisis. Biologists. Used to say, evolution. Is all about competition. Survival. Of the fittest nature. Red in tooth and, claw. Grab. As much as you can rape the spoil wreck, the environment. It. Doesn't work that way. Now. They're. Beginning to understand, it's much more about collaboration. And symbiosis, of, helping each other. And nature, does better, when, species, work together that's, all. We. Haven't learned this yet. Where, does the plant teacher I want to come in to play I. Do. Believe, in the concept, of plant teacher and these are catalysts. You know we're, coal evolving, it's all about sin Dioses. Ayahuasca. And these, other sacred medicines. Are kind of like ambassadors, for. The entire. Community. Of sentient. Species and, they're. Trying to get a message out to us and the message, is basically wake, up. These. Crazy. Monkeys, are either gonna, save. The show or they're, gonna completely, kick everything to pieces. Denis, is tapping into some, type of ancestral. Wisdom. Something. With a message. Tonight. He wants to go deeper and he. Insists, I go with him. So. We're going to visit the shaman. To. Prepare a super, strength through. I'm. Not, sure if this is a good idea. This, right here is a. Concentrated. Ayahuasca. Paste. Which. Was, which. Was brewed. On-site. In Asia. People village, by, our shaman and his.
Family And, it's. Excellent. Really, strong medicine the. The the journeys, are more intense they go more globally. Focused rather, than personal, focused, and, for. My second ceremony you're. Going to give me some of the global through. If. You like okay. Well, what does he think is the most important, characteristic of a great Shannon. Not. In there, my, Lopez I mean post a CO 2 personas. 3. A in a to plan test he. Yet. That mass all. The shamanic traditions. In South America, and ayahuasca the shaman. Needs, to spend. A, significant. Amount of time. Dieting. So dieting. Means getting. Very. Minimal, very simple, food and. Spending time and isolation, in. The jungle, consuming. One of a whole, pharmacopoeia. Of medicinal, plants from the jungle. What, do I get handbook diversity, conectado con spirito, will, Atlanta, on. The. Poem ayahuasca they study yes. We just proved a sin to be see on I'll give a present at una mujer who nombre speedy. To be still from misty, mint typical, if the Cantor a, significant. Seeker, of the stand and. Talk. To Mason super consuming to miss Phinney to to pass cantando Ali me and Alyssa condoms algunas cosas que no one of us I can deliver on a, pony, and assume center. Cuando. Está buscando la, noche. Que. We stay UK, esta vez con town we took a way. Mr., Canton de sintra. Kanita, a brief. Luego. Yeah, segunda, noche yeah estamos haciendo una cosa, que es a series two, messiahs. Party. By massa yeah no I'm. A fiend Oh. Canta. Planta dns. Respira, to the, tuna levels, this, is spiritus, trouble Akane. Alaska. There's. An sonia, pasado. Percentage, two responses. This. Way look the same see look, at the Posada into me yes device, where gamma. 0, del, pasado, el, castillo, he'll, get HIV. Jesse. This, time I'm hoping we can really get a big perspective and maybe I can learn more about. Plant, intelligence. Environments. Us as a species how, we interact on this earth the future, what, things look like when we take different directions so. I really need some bigger answers, and bigger. Questions. I'm. In the hands of. Mother. Ayahuasca and, I got Dennis McKenna on my right-hand side the shaman on my left so I'm in, good hands but I mean let's be honest once I'm in there I'm all alone and I, gotta, have just be ready for everything it brings so.
Oh. It. All came, on. I got, obliterated. Completely. Dissolved. All, of these insects, were eating, up my dead body, just, from ripping the apartment. Sending. Me back to nature to. This giant living organism. Connected. To all. And. It. Said this. Is how powerless, you are and. How. Small, you are. And. This. Is how big we are and. How long-term, we think. You. Are just, nothing. Here. Remember. This. And. Then. I don't, know why I got. Shown all this pain in the world. And. I was made to feel it. I got, sick I felt. Nauseous. It. Was horrible. Ha. Ha. And. So at the end it just took me and stripping, the fuck way back down and just said what the fuck are you fighting like, you are just this little kid that never, got the love that he wanted you're. Just this little kid that just wanted some love and I just didn't get it and I was crying I. Was. Visualizing, this little boy and, this was me when my parents got divorced and. This. Boy was building up all these walls around him. Because, he'd been hurt so much. I'm. Just feeling the pain feeling, filling, this pain all the time and it's because but. Just didn't get this love as a kid I just didn't I don't for whatever reason, I love my dad and, I love my mom and I love my parents I just I don't. Know I didn't feel it and so this, is me um. Compensating. And I'm sure Pena sees this isn't so of course I told you this you're compensating, you're looking for love that's it you're looking for approval. And. Then. Just my brain was just lost. All this information, and it just started hitting me with these big lessons. Make. Her your queen, make her your queen. Because. She's such a big part of my life and she, kept coming up but kept come you know kept. Coming up and, I, was, like I know this. Gaddy, as well so Gabrielle, I mean. But. Like the last couple years she's become a teenager and I'm just not in touch with her and it's just totally my fault my, lack of ownership. Everyone. You know just everyone. It's. Silly ass I don't like give me the information that's what I'm here for it's like you always had the information, you. Just chose not to pay, attention to it so, because. You just been bombarded. With all this information. Your ego decides what's in it for me and then I'm doing the mimimi stuff and you just don't realize all these things that are happening around you that in the, long term. Are. Just, taking, away everything you think you're building I. Just. Need to start investing in these people you know I mean under me London real but like enough enough. So, we had our second ceremony last night mmm-hmm, and I. Had, a quite. An experience, probably the most. Riveting. Experience. Of my whole life it. Was pretty strong Dennis put that in quotes. Trademark. That. But. I I know what you mean I'll be interested to see how you, handle. This. Tremendous. Download. About your family, and all these insights. But. I have a feeling that you will do things because, you're the. Kind of guy that doesn't just, talk you do things. When. We have a psychedelic, experience we, feel like children, it's. Like seeing, the world with new eyes, just. Open to everything. I. Keep. Reflecting on last night's ceremony I. Felt. Connected to everything and everyone, but. I, was just one part of a much larger organism. This. Leads to one simple truth. What, we do to others we. Ultimately do. To ourselves. Humans. Cannot be healthy in a world that's dying. The. Archaic mind, understood. That. Nature. Is conscious. Nature. Is alive, nature, is an organism, full, of intent. Our. Own, decision. To view the universe as. Inanimate. As, unintelligent. Allowed. Us permitted. Us to dissect it, use, it and deny, its. Validity. Outside. Of human purpose. Now. The consequences. Of living like that is coming back to haunt us now, we have almost destroyed. Our home. We. Have to recover, our, respect. For nature our love for nature and we have to realize that we're not running things. Plants. The plants are running nature. But. If you look at the way that plants, optimize. Their. Relationships. With their environment. Through, very clever strategies. That's. A kind of intelligence. You. Know we should be so smart I mean look at what we do to our environment, you know so. That's, the kind of intelligence it's, they don't think, in the way we do they don't have brains. Brains. Are overrated. We. Must. Give. Reverence. And, credence to nature, and nature's, methods, because no other methods, will allow. Us to work our way out of, the, present, mess we're in. I. Took. The full, dose of the rocket, fuel last, night figuring I was gonna go spinning, off into other dimensions. Didn't. Happen huh that's, happened, I was mostly pretty calm and centered, the whole time yeah it was good. The. Next one, you. Know if if a patient's, been operated, on this, is like sewing, them up and getting, them out of the operating, room and they're good to go.
My. Third ceremony, was just like Dennis described. No. Lessons, or visions just a deep meditation, that recharge me I, needed. It. Now. It was time to leave. The. Truth is that, I got used to the jungle. It. Feels good to be amongst plants and friends. But. Dennis wanted to show me one last thing a. Cloud. Forest a. Perfect. Example of, balance, and symbiosis. We're. In a race all. The forces of destruction and. Chaos. Of, dystopian. Futures, and. Then on. The other side of the coin brilliant, people coming, up with good ideas that, would really work and, that are working. Who. Wins I. Don't. Know I don't know. Where. The David against the Goliath, is. It is some deep. But. A grassroots. Movement can. Go viral I mean these things can happen this is what we need to make happen, yeah and with technology today, never, metaphor, that. One. Voice or, a few voices can really. You, know have, a big affair. You. Are, in a position to propagate, this message, on a global scale. The, entire destiny. Of all life on the planet is. Tied up in this we are not acting, for ourselves. We. Happen, to be the point species. On a. Transformation. That will affect, every, living. Organism on. This planet it, is concluded. The, archaic holds, answers, but it only holds answers, if we are willing to think of the, universe as, a living. Intelligent. Entity, with, which we are in partnership. Not. Set, against. But, that in fact we are a part, of an. Unfolding. Reality that, is larger. Than, human understanding. Imagine. Larger. Than human understanding. -, you, know so thank, you for getting me down here and I feel, like this is just the beginning I think, it is the beginning it changed my life too you're a great. Partner, to work on this I mean you really do have global. Influence, I think we're gonna if we're gonna encounter us some people that we never thought would, be part of us on this journey gert your loins keep your powder dry, let's. Do it. Man, I don't like the real world I don't like it at all I missed, the jungle, I miss, simple food I miss, going to bed early. Promised. Myself a lot of big changes and, I, have to deliver. So. It's all laid out clearly. The. Only thing I have to fight against now is me not. Executed. London. Welcome. To the machine. I felt, it as soon as I set foot on the streets. This. Was. Going to be challenging. It's, easy to understand, cooperation, and symbiosis in nature. But. Not in this concrete jungle. What. Competition is on every corner. Where. Everything screams of separation. Coming, back to my studio felt very strange. Like. I had changed. But. Everyone here was, still the same. Morning. Everybody we're back got, a lot of really powerful lessons, about my life and about this place first, of all just the people here a huge resource and I want to make sure I've spent a lot of time each one of you and listened to you for your ideas and make sure that your. Ideas are a big thing of this part, of this going forward and the last thing is one I have more fun. When. Your boss comes back from an hour Wasco trip it's not the kind of thing that you expect to encounter, in a work environment you. Know things change. Quite. Quickly. I want to focus on the people here I want to listen to my team more I want to build this space something that we're super proud of when, he got back I mean, he. Was very different he, was he, was visibly looser, he was visibly more relaxed, he, decided we needed more plants in the office listened. To the plants, and make sure that we don't destroy them because, they're a huge part of why we're here and maybe even more important, than us sometimes, and as egoic, animals, sometimes we think we're just better than, any animal in any plant when in fact they have really. Some fascinating, intelligence. And they think longer term than we do he, will some rather interesting shifts. For interviews. I'm. Actually off for two weeks with the family to, the south of France my mom's having her 75th, birthday and, all the kids are getting together so, it should be a lot of fun I. Came. Back to London with. Grand. Visions, of, everything. I needed to change in my life and I. Start. Sharing that with people it's funny you know I had an ayahuasca ceremony in, Costa Rica look, I went down there I've only been back three days I'm, still integrating. I get, told that I'm connected, to everyone around me you, talked about in the beginning which is we are all one and so I took a full dose of the condensed. Stuff which was probably a double, dose my. Second ceremony I saw a lot of powerful imagery, and feelings, about the.
Idea, Of dissolving, the ego beyond the ego I got, absolutely. Dissolved. And having these individual, conversations, saying this is the way it's gonna be every, molecule my body was just pushed back into nature and it was shown to me that I'm just a small speck. Of nothingness in the billion years of life would. Kind of fight back and say no we are this human race and we are of feelings, and we we must at least try to survive, it's, a little too much for, some people to handle all of that stuff go I went down to Costa Rica and drank, some ayahuasca plant. Medicine oh yeah, yeah. You. Want to come do that with me sometime oh it doesn't you. Know they must look at me like a bit of a madman and. Allowed me to think. About. All the possibilities, to open my brain up to all these ideas and, you know truths, about the world and, it's, an amazing space you, know where it does that you. Know. Pharmaceutically. How whatever it is. Mmm. Interesting I. Mean, the ayahuasca experience is pretty traumatizing. But it must be even more traumatizing, for the person that hasn't had the, experience, I. Think. He experienced. Everything in the ceremony, but it's so hard to describe a psychedelic, trip it's, impossible. Or I don't know what is worse when people really try to tell you what they've been through. Taking. Ayahuasca he. Just had that different, perspective that is not all about him on the end of the day we're. All one and we have to it's like he, has to do his duty. My. Trip to Costa Rica changed, everything I knew. It was time to go big I. Realized. London real would play an important part in transforming, human, consciousness. So. We created a new mission hired. More people and doubled. Our output. London. Real has a new purpose, to. Create a mass scale transformation. Of humanity, into a fully empowered conscious. And cooperative, species. Outside. The studio things, were getting real I. Don't. Usually get involved in protests, but, I had to find out what was going on. Most. Of them were no more than 16 years old I've. Never seen anything like it. And. It made me think about my own children. What. Can I do for their future. But, taking part in this conversation is. Like jumping into a firestorm it's a hoax it's a hoax an. Information, war that. Is separating, us from each other even, more. Global. Warming is the greatest, fraud has been perpetrated on, mankind this. Century, in the cosmos, of time of, the, 13.8. Billion years, that we've been on this miserable planet it's. Not a fart in the wind and I'm jealous, of the, Vice President, Gore I am jealous he came up with a scam before I didn't. I've. Got 21. 23, year-old children and, what's. Their future. With you paper with money now you're full of shit sit down I'm gonna answer you. Shut. Up shut. Up and sit down. This. Is not about who is right or wrong. This. Is about the story we tell ourselves as. A species. Do. We want to dominate nature, or. Cooperate, with it.
Environment. Is a huge issue right, now there's no question. Am. I worried about it no I have a plan, and I'm working to the plan our. Plan is along with the natural. Contours. Of life, if. All of us have the same plan we. Can turn this around are. We gonna turn it around you're. Asking for a prediction I'm telling, you I have a plan, are. You committed to the plan that's a question. Isn't. It. One. Thing is certain, this. Strategy, for survival, is, not working. Right. Now you're happening, here as a part, of everything else. What. The trees exhale, you're inhaling what you exhale the trees are inhaling. What. You think as myself is, just a psychological. Boundary. That you have set up. If. You experience, everything around you as myself. Do. You need morality. Did. Anybody teach you or do these five fingers this, is a small finger don't cut it off is this a morality needed like that anything, that you feel is a part of yourself with that you don't need any values, ethics morals, nothing because. It's, a part of you. There's. People talking about this but. There's equally a certain number of people that just say no no no let's. Just have. The phone now. Now. Making, money is better than the eighties and they. Say my generation, ripped the ass out of the world and, I was proud to be one of those that, ripped it. But. How can we change that conversation, the, way to stop, is to. Uplift human consciousness, so. That people can stop thinking, about themselves all the time and. Learn to self. Your. Greatest contribution. To humanity is, your own self realization your. Own enlightenment, as you uplift, yourself you. Don't leave everyone else around you and. For, me to be the better version of myself I need to be concentrated. Long enough so. That I can turn, my gaze inward, look. At myself, and go where, my force. My. Flaws. But. Fortunately, the. Harder I worked on London real the. Less time I had to work on myself so. I've. Been thinking I want. To host an event that, brings everyone. Together I'm. Talking about London, reelers from all around, the world and. I also want to get former guests from all different, kinds of point of view I'm talking about people like Dan Pena, and Dandapani Marisa. Pierre mantak, chia and I want to put them all in one room only. London real can do this and I. Want, to go big. As the. Months went by our new. Mission took over everything. The. Lessons from the ayahuasca were fading, and I. Was falling back into, old patterns. So. I decided to ask for. Help. Hey, Shawn thanks, for getting on the call with me today I really appreciate it you know I I've. Been struggling a bit with this whole process. Of integration. I'm. Not. Manifesting. Everything, that I saw I don't, know what to do, everyone. Around me thinks I'm a bit crazy. Absolutely. And, this is a really common experience. That's, so Terra we recommend, that people be really careful. About how. They choose to share their experiences, and who they choose to share them with, one. Of the maestro's once said sometimes he doesn't even tell his own wife because. As far as his two concern it's between him and the medicine and so. It's, that level of sacredness that we really want to encourage people to bring, to the medicine I saw, these visions, of what, I should be and what I was supposed to become I see, that I need to spend more time with my children and you. Know listen to every member on my team and act like some benevolent, God I wrote everything down in the heroes journal and then I come back to the real world where. Where. I have to live and I. Can't, implement, that all that stuff practically. It's just not practical and, I guess I saw an idealized, version of myself that I can't be. Right now and that's, that's. Frustrating, for me, frustration. Is an emotion, and oftentimes, that's. Where things head is, like how do we address. This emotion. Inside. Ourselves and, that's why this kind of no know thyself this, internal, work, becomes. Such, an essential part of that when, we're just trying to push the, change to happen then. That's when we get the most resistance. But. The reality, is the. Great accomplishments, require, hard work and sacrifice. There's. No such thing as work/life, balance. There, are work life choices and you make that and they consequences. You're. A cunt Ryan not me. Explain. Your. Week and. Your. Show and you and you want these people to like you you, have, no idea how. Limitless. It is when. You're not afraid of what other people think or say and, you. Can be more than you are if these little cunts, think that you're something now I see. You a. Thousand. Times more. See. They have low standards these, fucking weenies the watch is fucking thing I don't. I know what you can be they. Think you're a big fucking deal I know you're not and. Down. Deep inside Brian you, know that, I'm closer to being right than they are. There's. Always a distance, behind he's.
Always On the go he's always under, getting. Things done. Success. Is, everything and, career. Came. Back with all those. Different. Homes like different, belief system, you. Know. A bit of what. Things he's. Quite. A bit of change I. Don't. Think he likes to be on his, own very much, he. Doesn't enjoy holidays. He just needs to do something. He always has to do something. He. Has just, a hard time, being. With me in the children. In. August I had two weeks off and I'll, be honest, four days later I, left. And flew back to London alone because. I couldn't, be the. Holiday, dad. He. Just couldn't, couldn't. Stay with us. So. I stay in Bordeaux with the free kids, it. Was Damon's birthday first birthday and he missed it I. Definitely. Struggle, with this problem. And well. What, was on your mind or in your end board oh I don't know restlessness. But I just couldn't get this uneasy, feeling of, things. I needed to do. But. Yeah this is a big question for me and even though I know, it's. Part of my character mmm. Changing. It's another story well. This, is the challenge your core issue, has. Always been a sense of adequacy. Or inadequacy, or am i enough. That. Am i enough is, a. Question. That comes out of trauma. The. Work is so seductive, precisely. Because it's, so appreciated, by the world if. I think I'm not enough then I want more and more validation, for the world that I'm enough so. There's, something addictive, about that. I mean. If you could do this spend double the amount the, world would love you even more your, kids would miss you and my. Wife would hate your wife would hate you but, the world would think. What a great even, greater guy Brian roses. This. Is where the hunger comes from you can never get enough. Because. By doing you. Will you're never satisfied. When. Your hunger is about B. I'm. Not. Sure that you want to stay by that way for the rest of your life because, it cuz you got these two young kids and what's. The message to them and that is restless, or onda, it's. Their fault yeah. That's. That's some of their not adequate. Which. Happens, to be your particular life story some persisting, this throughout the generations, so that this is already pass it on. And. When, you're restless, and unhappy on your kids they get a message that it's about them. Because, children, interpret. To the world in those narcissistic. Way is that whatever, happens is because of me. So. This is a highly traumatized, society but. I'm saying this is the world that we're living and so this is the world in which there's even more need for. Self-examination. For painful. Inquiry. So. In a sense the worse it gets the more it induces people, to ask the right questions. Here, I am trying. To heal the world. But, instead I'm, hurting. Everyone around me I. Keep. Trying to transform, humanity. But. I can't even fix myself. When. I'm not in the ceremony, I go back to default mode as well am. I. Living in a living example of, what, a human should be no by no means, and I hate myself for that you. Know are we doing everything we should be doing no you. Know are we putting out the purest message out no and then that pisses me off, pisses me off am I being the best parent no. I'm. Not going to say that world then, what is to be saved by by every every every, person in this world, that's. Why, this fear, this fear cannot, finish in, a happy. Ending is like what. Are we going to do are we're going to save seven. Millions of people they need to save themselves, yeah I know but still I mean jesus, fucking christ you like to think I could be a better example you know it's. Very frustrating. I needed. To talk to a friend. Dorian. Yates was someone who understood me and the. Medicine. He. Was our first guest to. Talk about how psychedelics, helped him transform his life after. An injury ended his career as the, sixth time mr. Olympia the. Greatest body in the world. Dorian. Is on a journey of healing and self-discovery, and, always. Learning and reinventing. Himself. Recently. Read this book called the secret life of trees and it's. All about the trees and how they communicate. Through the root system so if, this is attacked by a predator the. Other ones know and they can make some kind of a defensive, system. Or something like that yeah. So are they trees or. They, just one thing, yeah, you know like people we all think we separate what we're all one. Kind of one unit at the end of the day. Dorian. Just had an ayahuasca ceremony himself. A, tough. One. It. Was intense it was brought it was probably the most intense. Ceremonies. That I've been through. All, my physicality was taken away I couldn't, literally move. Tough. Guy you, know okay, think, you're a tough guy a strong guy okay. Let's see smash, now.
What. Are you gonna do now who are you I. Think. The big message there for me was that it's. Okay to be like that sometimes, it's okay to to, ask for help as I was not used to doing that still. You. Know that Western, macho. Male mentality. That got, to be strong always and. Don't. Be vulnerable and don't ask for help and all that was just. Taken. Away from me. The, root of it is a 13 year old boy that lost, his father and. Perhaps. All. The, the. Training and the strength and all the physique was some kind of armor in. A way to, protect that little. Boy that still exists. Inside. All of us. See. I felt that I had. This great last. This great trauma and it wasn't really addressed by, other. People in my family by my mother and so on. And maybe there was some blame there for that but. I get. It man I get it and this wasn't their fault they were you. Know they were living their story and their own. Personal. Traumas, and whatever happened in their life which affected, the way that they, behaved. And the way they treated me in the way they brought me off and everything so um, I got, rid of that kind of blame. That I made of attaching, to all that before and would be nice if I could tell him that. You. Know I got shown my own trauma, as a seven-year-old and my parents divorcing, and that's something I think that, has. Caused me to maybe, like you become, an overachiever. Maybe prove myself to the world, I think. Proved to myself maybe, that, I'm worthy, maybe it's control as, well but I want everyone to love you yeah. Even. Though I tell myself that I don't need it yeah you got the same thing in it and, it becomes maybe, just a self. Repeating. Loop we all get stuck in a, in. A mold and. You, know that's. That's. What can happen with ayahuasca. You. Get that mold and she fucking smashes, on the floor. The. Integration, process of trying to now. Become. That vision, that I've seen of myself, is is hard and I think most people don't understand that the ayahuasca is not like you're done matter, of fact it can be even harder when you come back because you see who. You could be and then you're not and then the rest of the world is. Happy, where you are and, you have to kind of push through that Oh sometimes, we're gonna go on a spiritual journey I, mean. I've said to myself sometimes, in life this. Is great but. Wasn't. Ignorance, for this you. Know it. Probably wasn't but, I mean, anyway you can't go back for. Me I'm on a journey and I'm, learning something every time and, I know. There's. Still more to learn. For. Me this thing, when I was seven years old keeps coming up and I don't know I'm thinking maybe I should go you, know talk to my parents about it maybe. Hello you're, lucky they're still here that you can do that mic on my.
Father Died my mom died so I can't even tell. Him about this but sure. If your parents are here man like why. Waste the opportunity go go speak to him. So. I email, my dad and. Said. Hey. Pops would, you be up for a short visit for me and maybe even a short interview, while I'm there I, need. To resolve this and not, just for me but for my. My. Family, for. London. Real for everything like if I can't figure out this, story. I'm telling myself I'm gonna just continue. In this loop. My. Guest today is dr. Joe Dispenza you, specialize, in teaching people to rewire their brains and recondition. Their bodies to make lasting, changes dr.. Joe welcome back to London real thanks so much crying I'm always happy to be with you I'm going to San Diego, to. Really sit down with my parents, and talk about this traumatic. Memory I had when I was seven, but. I don't think I'm looking for an answer from them because there isn't an answer I think the only answer is my. Projection, of my new me and my new future right, exactly. What you may, want to understand. Is, how, they felt that's. More important than anything else like it heard, us to. See you hurt. You. Lay like. Hey. Keep it moving huh no. Look no loitering here, alright you don't look like you belong in this neighborhood. Give. Me a hug all right good. Once, you understand, their struggle, you'll, understand, your struggle you were a seven-year-old, boy that you, thought I had something to do with you or you thought it was something wrong. What. Was I like as a kid you. Would kind, of bang. Things on the walls and, you know you wouldn't just, cooperate, at all do. You think I was angry. Because the divorce. I. Possibly. I. Mean. Divorces, always hurt kids, but I I really wanted. To minimize it, for. Me you know when I do these these, um plant. Medicine, ceremonies, in these ayahuasca ceremonies. Like most. Times it goes back to that that, at that, moment when I was seven you. Told, us about the divorce and, I think for, some reason when my personality. I was just like I. Kind. Of I just built these walls all up up. Around me at that time maybe that was like. So. It, was like I. Think. I did build these walls up then I think I realized I was just trying to keep people out of my life so they wouldn't hurt me so. Right, I think, that's what that's what that raised yeah, yeah, yeah yes yes mission, anybody, that could hurt, me yes. Yeah. Your head right now. Won't, see my dad now. And my stepmother and, the house I grew up in in high school and Delmar. This. Is like memory, lane coming back here just crazy. Oh. When. Does. The, story, end. If. Not, now when. Understanding. It's, gonna help you understand, view I. Remember. You coming home one of them kid they're, just a big deal when you came home you. Were coming home at night that's what happens when you have, serious. Career. Going on and your time is already told, and. That's what you were brought up for part that's not, the same thing I was not like it was I didn't, feel. Negligent. Or derelict, so. When I was seven you. Ended up moving to a different place yes what. Do you remember about the divorce. Know. All kinds of things I I, don't. Think about that anymore okay. There, was it was it all very complicated yeah extremely right that's very complicated nothing. Like we, planned right. And there's a lot, of hard work by straight away, yeah. It was something I always come back to that, time always comes back to me I'm. Trying now to not do that anymore and just to like not have that, defined me and that that's 40 years ago I know. Nobody. Wants to live with their past forever. Time. To shovel it over your shoulder. What, it replaces any, traumatic. Experience, is a, new experience and the. Memory, without. The emotional charge is called, wisdom. But. It's also really selfish of me to like, blame, that on you, and Dad and the divorce because I mean. How are you feeling at the time I mean, what, was it like for you yeah. Well, you. Can imagine yeah I mean I crashed and burned I never, his. Parents, and my parents were both married. 50 years plus, that was my reality of so when I did. Confront your dad you, know I was a mess, I. Mean. It was almost surreal. It just like just. Can't be real and then I got that idea to go to Europe, that I had to run away it, was really good for me I had a lot of time to think and, opened.
Up My world. You, no longer say I am this way because of that event you say, bye that was one of my greatest teachers, and. Now you're no longer looking. Back to, your past you're looking forward to your future. That, tragedy. Freed. Me to live a potential. That I would have never been able to do or never allowed myself to do and, reordering, my life I had to think about what, do I want to impart to you I really, wanted you to have exposure outside, of. Just. American, culture. Probably. The reason I'm in London right now yeah, I think, so. They brought you into this world dude and that would, she be thanking, for. I just, wanna say thanks bad for being my dad. Love. You very much, we. Wanted you to well. What. If the worst thing that happened to you becomes. The best thing that happened to you. It's, funny how we get caught up in these, stories, that disconnect, us. We, get entangled in these narratives, that, ultimately don't serve us. That. Separate, us from everything, else. But, separation, is an illusion. Instead. We have a choice. To tell ourselves a new story. Yes, change is usually uncomfortable. And. Oftentimes scary. But, isn't that why we are here. To, fail to, learn and. Come back stronger. To, find a way to heal our wounds. Not. Just for ourselves but. For. Everyone, around us. Because. We can change our stories if, we truly want to. As. Individuals. And, as a species. There. Was one last thing I had to do. Speak. To my mentor about, all of my experiences. And. Try to convince the 50 billion dollar man to. Look at the world in, a different way. You. Know last year in July I went down to Costa Rica for. Some of my plant, medicine ceremonies, ayahuasca, and you were there in. Pena, and I. Needed, to tell you what I saw I mean this is serious and okay first of all I, pretty, much just get obliterated, as a person, and mother, earth or Gaia whoever, it is pretty much just dissolves, me and says, all. You humans are just nothing in the grand scheme of time you, are really nothing more than a, fart, in the wind and it. Was a painful thing to hear it was brutal, because I couldn't run away from it I couldn't, check my Facebook feed I couldn't, call my mommy right, on the same note I came back with, a counter argument and said okay yeah but right now we're here and we're humans and I. Started, seeing human. Archetypes, that are helping, us, survive. And I, saw. You in a big way just, like your head was right there pushing. Us pushing, us to be the best version of ourselves or die, and it. Was just really powerful for, me so I just wanna I. Kind. Of want to honor you for everything you do because, that's that's a big deal and what you do is a big deal. You're. Trying to course-correct. Human. Species that's, going the wrong way, correct I could kill it so correct okay. You already think we're fucked yes we're, dead we're all dead we're dead you know it may be 200 years 400, years managers, we're. Finished no, matter what no, matter what but, if I it's like I dreamt, five or six months ago a qlae. Mentee. Probably. A real er came, up with a cure for everything from, cancer to impotence. To, fucking. Everything. He, gave it away. He. Fucking gave it away I dreamt, it just as clear as I'm watching you right now you, meant. He'd someone, who, saved, the world. Yeah. And. Then. Love, worked. That's. Very a big that's heavy and that, is the true act of love, damn Pena just said on record that maybe love worked in the end at, the end. Damn. Why wouldn't you, drink.
Ayahuasca With, me. Well. I'm. Not gonna drink ayahuasca I'll, imagine if you were in power with that I mean it, could be a force to be reckoned with I probably float. Will. You before you die may well I'm gonna do heroin before I die ah. We. Are facing a global challenge. It. Looks pretty crazy out there right. Our. Actions, in the next 50 years are, going, to determine if we survive or not it, starts with you making a choice inside, that's. How we're gonna get through this and. That's why I think this isn't a moment of crisis I think. This is a amazing. Opportunity. I know, because I'm on the front lines London. Real via YouTube, and iTunes and all these things that spread these incredible, messages, people get it they want to hear this all of you want this information. The. Next level of evolution is 7, billion humans, come together to create a super, organism called, humanity. And. I'm. So blessed to have this technology in this connection, we couldn't have done this 20 years ago is this, a coincidence that. This is here now I think. It's one of our best opportunities. What. Would it be like to raise. An entire generation of young people based. Upon what we now know, to. Be true in science, that. Cooperation. Is, a fundamental. Rule, and. So I ask you today. I'm, asking you right now who. Will you become. How. Will you contribute and how. Will you transform, yourself every day you make a difference, of some sort and you. Have a choice as to what kind of difference you're going to make. What. Am I afraid of, ask. Yourself, that it's, really powerful, that fear we usually run away from it our whole lives that's actually, something that we can learn to go into. This. Comfort, and fear is an arrow it's here, it's, this. Is where the gold is x, marks. The spot. What. Am i avoiding because, it's uncomfortable, almost. Everything I do these days that makes me happy and gets a result is uncomfortable, what. Is in us we. Have no idea. Until, we. Start trying hard it's. Not always meant, to be fun. Question. Number three that brings it all together is this, what. Was I put on this planet, to do this. Is a powerful. Powerful question, this. Is not what, do I want, to do. Because. I want you to be all you can be, not. Some fucking reasonable, facsimile. That. If we all can do this we're gonna contribute to the greatest chapter, of humanity, that the world has ever seen, this is our time. Heavens. Are collapsing, this is our time to change if, you want to raise human consciousness, there, has never been a better time I. Think. They'll look back on this time in hundreds of years and say wow they, were this close to screwing it up but, they managed to pull it out. Wake, up you bum keys you know the first thing you have to do is wake up. Take some action, transform. Yourself, I really. Believe my. Entire species, depends. On and. So on behalf of myself. And. The entire team, at London, real I've, just got one last thing to say to you all, let's. Fucking. Do, this. Thank. You. You.