lots of painting and end of the year insecurities

lots of painting and end of the year insecurities

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I need. To whatever effort. But. Indeed I do you guys. It's. So classic realtor nexium Corsica be done in come on. Notice. On under capital. Murder. Oh. Hi. You guys how are you good, morning today's. Monday no, one is, at. The studio whatsoever, not only my studio, but it feels like I'm the only human being today. Only, because it's December 23rd, and I guess everybody's. Chillaxing. I on. The other hand wanted, to come to a studio because, it's so quiet and nice and today, I decided, that, I, wanna paint. I'm. A very insecure artist, as, you can tell and. I. Saw. All of these very inspiring, tweets. Of people. Saying, like my best illustration, of 2019. And I realized, that even though this year I have done so many studies and. Sketches. I haven't, done lots. Of. Painted. Illustrations. This, year I wanted to focus on as, you guys know facial. Expressions, noses. Drawing. People. With. More. Ethnicities. And like body, types and stuff like that so, all of the work that I've done all, my body of work of 2019, I was. More based, on sketches, than, finished. Illustrations. So, today I wanted. To. Risk. Myself, how, do you say that and I'm. Going to paint. A very. Complex. Illustration. I hate. Buildings. I hate. Buildings. I hate, landscapes. I mean, hate is such a strong word, it's something oh god how can I describe, this I am very bad at painting. And drawing landscapes this. Is why I have been avoiding them for so long because I can't, bear the. Fact of failing. But. Anyway, before. The year ends, I wanted. To. Face. My fears I'm, slapping. My camera I'm sorry I wanted, to face my fears and draw, a, landscape, so I found. Picture. That took a while, back, near Times. Square and I'm going to draw that picture or like the illustrated, version of the picture and yesterday. I was doing kind. Of like. How. Can you say that like a study, of the sketch and I, really, like. The feeling of this sketch even though it's just a sketch I love how undone it is I'm really, nervous my love's I know the drawing is going to suck. Am. I setting myself for failure it's not that I'm saying yes, I am I am setting myself for failure I feel, like a huge pressure that I have to perform well in front of you guys because I want to impress you I want, to impress myself, but. At the same time I, feel, like I don't leave room for. Experiment. Like to experiment and, to, fail or, just. Like, nod. Be. Mind. Like I said. A lot of pressure on the results and not, so much on the process, so, right now even, though I am going to fill myself and you're going to see the results, and judge me Agathe, I am. Trying to be more, kinder, to. Myself and, be like whatever. It is it. Will be you, know. So. That's that's. What I'm going to do today please. Hold my hand because. I'm scared. The other treatment. Okay, guys I'm done with lunch and, all. Of this is already dry, I added a few details, with white but. Now I'm ready to outline. This method. Also. I just baked this. Mug I probably, already told you with. Inserts, but I'm, my. Friends and I are organizing, the Secret Santa and I got my friend's mom I don't, know her that well but I know she is in love with her grandson. So I decided to do this. Mug for her and you're supposed to bake. The. Mug in order to set the painting for a half an hour that's. 300. Fahrenheit. And, I. Am so happy the glaze like the mug didn't. Break in the oven I'm, so happy, anyway I am, going to draw. This now I'm, running out of battery so maybe I will wait to get home to charge, the battery and then, I will show you the final result that's so excited, hip. Are, you guys good morning today. Sunday. My. Hair, we're. On our way to the. Studio because, I have to do my. Monthly, livestream. With, my patrons and. I. Also have to finish, a couple of things before going. On. Holiday. I'm, so happy you guys. Usually. Generate. But. Like the first weeks, of January is the time where and I take, time. Off and, this. Time a, comedy. About saying this we're, going to Tokyo. We. Went to Tokyo for. The first time in. 2016. I guess let me see if I look semi decent no. We. Went to Tokyo first, time back, in 2016. And when, we went we, thought okay this is it we're definitely like. There's no chance in. Hell we, can go again. Because. I don't know we we thought it was like a once-in-a-lifetime, time, experience. And. Now. We're going again and, I'm so happy we. Have been saving, for this trip for a while so. I can't believe it's actually happening this, Tuesday. So.

Yeah, That. Means obviously, that. We have two, full days to get, ready for the trip like, to pack I, need. To dye my hair a couple of you guys asked me Fran. What happen with your pink hair I've. Been waiting. To. Be as close, as the trip as possible so I can dye my hair pink. Because, the, crappy. Thing the. Sad thing about. Fantasy. Hair colors. Or like weird. Hair colors is that they fade super, quickly, so. I. Wanted, to wait as. Close as possible to the trip so I can have pink. Hair. Like, the longest, time I don't I can't I can't race I I wanted, to have pink. Hair as much as possible in my Japan, trip yeah, I said it correctly yes, okay. So today. I also want to finish this. Baby yet rough you guys remember but I started painting this. Obviously, we can see it this wash painting. Last. Week I mean this week and I, would really would, like to finish it because, even. Though I'm super scared of, out loudly outlining, it I think. It's a really nice exercise, and, I usually don't do this. Type of like landscape. Illustrations. On my sketchbook. So, I'm really, both. Excited, and terrified it's. So silly to be terrified at a sketch. Like I never stray here anyway. So. Yeah now I'm on, my way to studio and. I'm also I stole, one, of the tote. Bags that I had for sale but. Nice humans, I, I. Stole. Them. Because. It was I I, don't know if you can see but it's a bag that had like a few printing, issues. And, I, thought no one was going to buy this, bag so I'm like I might as well just have it for me and keep it so. I did by, the way guys I changed my camera I don't know if you can tell it, is the first time I actually have, a flip, screen I already told you that I've, been using the same camera the Canon EOS m. Since. 2011, and this is the first time in, a decade in, which I have a new camera. I. Love, my old camera by the way I just change it because I. Never. Had a flip screen I'm like I wonder what it feels like to her flip screen, so. Yeah I hope you guys like it Tumi's, really come from now to record. If I'm honest, it. Used to be a painting in, ds2. Film. Beforehand. So. Now I think I, can't, wait to try it in Tokyo and I'm, so excited about Tokyo, I feel like if. I can get like we. Intimate. And vulnerable, with you guys sometimes. I feel like I don't deserve to go to Tokyo, I mean you can see all of my clothes and imperfections, in here that's fine I, feel. Like I don't deserve to go I mean it's weird because I feel like it's, such a like amazing, trip and I can't believe when I'm doing again, but. Sometimes I feel like I, haven't. Worked hard enough in order to serve a trip like that but, then I remember, all. Of the times that I felt burned out during. 2019. And I'm, like of course I deserve this trip but anyway I feel like I, know, I'm silly and I'm not supposed to feel like that but, I do every. Once in a while. So. Yeah I feel like, I, have impostor syndrome in. An all-time high this. Past couple of weeks especially. Surrounding. My work and what I have done this year, and. Sometimes. I feel like I'm not a little straighter because. Even. Though I'm illustrating a, lot and I'm doing lots of. Sketch. Studies, I feel like I haven't done like a big, illustration. Project this year I haven't I didn't, do a book this year I didn't do, a, scene or like. A graphic novel or a comic, so. I feel like should, I be calling myself an illustrator, or should I be I don't, know it's, what I said the other day how, I feel, like I. Saw. All of this amazing artist doing like my best work in 2018. And all of those are, super. Finished, and amazing, detail, full-color. Illustrators. And I'm like I didn't do any of those things this year I did, lots of studies, so if, I can be kinder, and nicer to myself this, year I spend, most of the time making. Studies, like studying. Body. Shapes and body types and. Making. Sure that I'm more, inclusive, in my illustrations, trying to be more.

I Don't. Know, trying. I guess. The word is trying to, draw. More ethnicities, so what. I'm trying to say you guys is I'm trying to be not so dismissive on the work that I've done this year and even though it doesn't look like a really finished, put. Together a. Full-color. Detailed illustration. It is still a super. Nice. Something. Valuable to do sketches, to, study, to perfect yourself so if you don't have any finished illustrations. For. This end of the year don't feel bad because it's still valuable I still. Good. It's still something, like I'm so proud of the things that I achieved this year illustration. Wise so. Yeah. We'll. Still love ourselves anyway. Let's, go to Sudha now. Yeah. Let's. Go.

2020-01-05 03:50

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Mis amados nerds, en esta oportunidad no pudimos subir subtitulos en español, alguien podria escribirlos? Muchisimas graciaaaaas :.... ) http://www.youtube.com/timedtext_video?v=OJg0nrsPBQQ&ref=share

Fran Meneses This video hit the spot… I like the chill pace, I was running around all day. I listen to jazz to chill, and watching this is very nice. Also, have you ever seen live jazz? One of my favorite things to do.

Fran ! I'm a fan of your work for a few years now , your videos always make me happy watching , and I'm always looking forward to Friday so I can watch the new one

Don't you eat vegan anymore?

Fran, you are such an inspiration and I love this pace of video so much too! Happy new year my lovely xxx

Love your video's! Sometimes I find your uploads a bit too text heavy; that's because I draw myself when watching, so I don't get to read them all

I loved this video, calm, slowly, creative, with Ed :) Love from Paris France :)

The drawing you made is marvelous ! I really like the vibes of it and somehow reminds me of NYC (i'm french living in Paris). Is there any way we could get one of your illustration as a print ? I saw you don't sell prints on your website but I would really love to have this one on my wall, for real. I love your videos really much and as a creative myself you give me motivation to go further ! Keep going, love seeing you draw and also love this jazzy chill vibes you put into your videos ! Love from Paris !

Love seeing the steps in the "slow" painting process - love your videos! And you totally deserve the trip to Japan! ❤

Me encanta escucharlos hablar español entre ustedes ❤️

Sometimes if we´re in a time where we work on the roots we forget that the results just don´t show right away. It´s important to take the time to work on the root problems. When the work is done we will be able to step outside and produce things that radiate with knowlegde.

I really love the quiet parts of your videos but also talking parts. the mix is great and I love the jazz :3

The final illustration turned out amazing! Thank you for sharing your process & this amazing vlog :)

verte de frente a la camara me hace sentir mucha cercanía contigo Fran, es muy lindo aaaa, espero te la estés pasando muy bonito en japoncito :)

Se notó la cámara, me gustó este formato lento también, me gusta ver como trabajan los artistas, no se me hace lento.

Love your flip screen. You deserve to go. GO!

You're an amazing artist

Hey Fran, I am so happy that you can travel to Tokyo once again...very excited to know how is your experience in Japan this second time. It was lovely watching you sketch ...you did gooood ! :)

Gracias por compartir. ¡Y Feliz año nuevo!

Tus vídeos siempre tan relajantes e inspiradores, haz trabajado mucho con el lanzamiento de tu tienda ¡claro que te mereces esas vacaciones! Disfrútalo mucho. ♡♡♡ Pd: necesito tu ilustración como mi nuevo fondo de pantalla, es muy bella!

¡Extraño escucharte hablar español! Aun que sea de fondo, o solo con Ed, se escucha muuuy bonito.

Gracias en verdad por ponerle subtítulos uwu

*best way to procrastinate

I’ve already said this before but the slow placed bits bring so much peace into my life. I get to slow down with you and fall in love with art and the creation of art all over again. We artists get to have this headspace of “it takes time” and being okay with it is a struggle sometimes! Your videos get me re present to that love. Y también sus videos (y especialmente los subtítulos jaja) me recuerdan a como (cuanto?) me gustan aprender y hablar español. Tomé la clase de español por cuatro años y Lo Extraño mucho. Supongo es el día para reanudarme los estudios jjaja!

I LOVE THIS! Slow paced and calm! And great music! I was practicing drawing/painting and journaling with this video on and it was perfect

not only do i enjoy watching you make art, fran, but the video clips outside of the studio and your flat is also inspirational! it lets me know that there's more to share and be appreciative of these things, and that's not only reflective in your artwork. listening and watching your process makes me want to make art as i watch your videos. happy new year!! :) enjoy your time in tokyo!!!!

I enjoy these videos and I missed watching you draw! Would love to see more paintings and procreate drawings!

grande Fran!! :) what kind of paint did you use to paint the mug? thanks. enjoy your trip

Yes to being nicer to yourself, good advice for us all. Also, your feelings are valid, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed or imposter syndrome. The catch is to not let it dominate or overcome you. Giant hugs. Enjoy the trip!

I know that feeling of dread when you see what others have achieved...Urgh . But I think baby Fran or even London Fran would be super insanely impressed and in awe of what you achieved this year. Have a wonderful time in Tokyo.

Have you tried overtone for your hair dye ? I just tried it and I have to say the color has lasted pretty well I have purple hair, but they have a daily conditioner that you can use to help keep the color (you have to use gloves cuz it can dye your hands but it does help) I have curly hair so I only wash my hair like three times a week but it really has kept the color well. It’s vegan too a little on the expense side but it seems to work well and it’s been lasting, I dyed it at the being of December and I’ve only lost a little bit of color it’s also pretty hydrating for you hair

me encantó ver el proceso de pintar y delinear el dibujo, la música y el ritmo calmo. Excelente!

Me acuerdo de la Fran del pasado cuando nos contaba que estaba obsesionada con el sombreado en púrpura; veo a la Fran de ahora y pienso: puta que es bacán y cuatico cuando alguien progresa en algo tan constantemente que de repente cómo que te impresiona darte cuenta de cuánto avanzó.

FRAN HAS A VIEW FINDER! I REPEAT FRAN HAS A VIEW FINDER!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!

Fue agradable escucharlos hablar en español, aunque sea un poco

the painting looks so so good !! reminds me of the rhapsody in blue section in fantasia :^) really truly wonderful

your vlogs are always so soothing in some way

'We Are Nice Humans' is a beautiful message and work for the year Fran. You personally sourced, washed and ironed the pieces yourself before printing each one by hand -an absolute labour of love. Thank you for honesty, authenticity and heart, you are a true inspiration

Me encanta tu estilo de video que estas haciendo Fran, it's so perfect

I hope you’re enjoying your new flippy camera Fran. But we must know, are you still going to film the classic Fran mirror shots?

I could hear you there, listening to our Meme Mum!

Fran sería genial que Edo y tu nos recomendaran libros, de cualquier tipo, sería muy feliz... Recuerdo que en el podcast Edo hablo de, “estudios sobre el amor” de Ortega y Gasset, ese libro me fascinó. Gracias por todos tus vídeos, amo el acento chileno ✨ espero con ansias que retomen el podcast

But I loved your work from this year, the studies make me smile so much. I wish I could see them in person. Don’t push yourself down, those are illustrations too, and to be honest I value them probably more than some finished works from illustrators/artists. They show so much, including process, artists thoughts/focus, etc. I could ramble forever, essentially please continue your sketches

Estoy muy feliz por tu viaje

I love how you film it’s very organic and relaxing. I like the mixture of background noise and music, random question tho? Do you ever find it tedious moving the camera around for different angles and such? Just curious and I love the city illustration! Enjoy Tokyo!

Que bonito video

@valeria peñaloza gracias? :3

Es chilena

Have your favorite authors all published a book this year? Probably not. Don’t feel bad about your work. Studies are so important and what is important is the journey, not the end goal. And don’t forget that your videos are a form of art, you did lots of amazing and inspiring things in 2019!

9:48 Yes, I do. I love you.

Como hacen para celebrar el dia de los Tres Reyes Magos que alla no celebran. Los vídeos están muy buenos la musica y todo. Deberias intentar más colores de gouache aunque esos colores que usas definen tu trabajo. Es bueno siempre intentar algo nuevo. Los colores a veces cambian la atmósfera de una ilustración. Igualmente no le va a quitar a tu trabajo. En cualquier color se va a ver bien y si eres una Ilustradora

The sketch turned out SO SO nice! Love your Illustrations

I love your music choices in videos. They always work well with what's going on visually.

Also your painting came out beautiful,I really love his expression, this scene feels very *ghibli*

Hablas español??!!

Fraaaaaan, precioso video como siempre, la pintura excelente! Podrías explicar porque usas tu primer layer amarillo y en que ayuda al proceso de pintado por fi? Tengo esa gran duda hace mucho

Could you do a video about being vegan in Japan and how accessible it is? As well as not be able to speak Japanese?

What do i like in terms of videos??? Everything you do is great!!! I feel like you have a great mix of painting, working, home life, NYC, etc. I wouldn't hate seeing more of the cats though. I love those cats!

Honestly, the way you've done videos historically and now is why I follow! Super relaxing and just lovely. You've created a wonderful space that I look forward to.

YES!!!! We enjoy these calm slow paced drawing videos/sequences❤️❤️❤️It’s never enooouugghhhhh

You should get pink shampoo and conditioner! I have pink hair all the time now, I just use it every time I shower, it's amazing. I use Bleach London, Swartzkopf have one and if you can't get that in the US there will definitely be an alternative - check your nearest big beauty shop or Amazon :)

Bleach London is vegan and cruelty free also :)

You so deserve your time away! Really lovely relaxing video and great to see the whole process from start to finish xx

Hi Fran, watching you reference a B&W photo for your drawing made me think it would be cool if you painted one of Ed's photos in B&W/grays which would combine your style and his. Your painting is incredible and your skill is evident, but most important is your clear illustration 'voice' - the feel and internal communication your work accomplishes - which is yours and irreplaceable. Practice is learning and is the only path to success. We all appreciate seeing you go through that so we don't have false expectations of our own process and capabilities, so thank you for your candid bravery.

Your drawing and painting style are fabulous, very clever and sophisticated. So have more confidence.. you wouldn't be so successful on YouTube if you were shit !!!! Watching you pain is fabulous its a shame you don't do it more...I dearly wish you sold post card sets of these type of illustrations they are enchanting!!!!

thank you fran for such inspire

AMO como quedó la ilustración final!!! hermoso trabajo

yahooooooo LONG VIDEO!!!! I love when you do long ones. AND it didn't disappoint - except when I finished it and then was sad it was over. When I found your channel a year ago or something like that I binge watched it and so now to just have ONE video to watch at a time feels like not enough. But now I go back sometimes and watch videos I've already watched and try to pick up tips for my own videos (as far as shots, editing, the flow, etc.). AND you may not have done a book but you did a WHOLE COLLECTION of clothes this year woman! Love your work Fran!

You're an amazing artist. Never doubt yourself!

thank you for your vulnerability about the doubts and anxieties as an artist. your sincerity is so inspiring, and your art is simply beautiful. have a lovely trip to tokyo!

I love the music and the editing of your videos. I love how calm they are because I usually eat my breakfast while I watch ❤️

Qué cámara es Fran? Me encanta la calidad de imagen que tiene!!! La verdad la otra camara tenía su encanto y me encanta que le hayas dado tanto uso ^^ Por favor pásatelo genial en Japón y compra muchas cosas de papeleria!!!

i love the illustration so much! looks so calm but lively (is this the right term? man, my german english skills are bomb

Did I hear my ankle bearing meme mom in the background while you painted???

Hi Fran Thank you so much for those videos. I suffer from anxiety and they always calm me down. All the best for 2020. Regards Daniel

Why would you feel bad for not printing new book, while you've printed like hundreds t-shirts one by one, while putting all that effort to get them second hand, opened new online shop, did the website by yourself, filmed dozens of videos and plenty of other amazing things?! Like Instagram comics and gifs or that poster with eyes? I thought your 2019 was really thriving and successful. :0

Yaaaaaassss be kinder to yourself

Fraaan me encanta ver tu proceso en las ilustraciones que haces

Me encanta este video! El inicio de este vlog me recuerdo de tus primeros vlogs

I love the colours you chose for that drawing! Great job!

Todo toma tiempo, Fran. Tu mereces TODO que Dios te ha permitido vivir y experimentar. Be proud of the small steps that lead to the Big ones. Eres digna por el esfuerzo que haz demonstrado en todo este tiempo that I follow you. Haz crecido grandemente en tu estilo come ilustradora (is that even a word?!)

i could tell you were watching Costube's secret santa videos!! :D

It came out so cute, I'm so proud of you Fran. I do not have the patience so I also envy you, lol

I really like how you are open and say what you are feeling. Showing vulnerability and trying to overcome your fears are great qualities! You go girl! Happy new year Fran!!!

YES, OF COURSE WE ENJOY SLOW - PACED CALMED VIDEOS, o sea por favor, fran, por algo te miramos, porque eres una de nuestras youtubers favoritas del mundo mundial.

This video was so peaceful and so open, thank you for being such an inspiration ✨ What camera did you get?

Tokyo is so inspirational cuando se trata De Fashion and Art.

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