I Don’t Fit In (the Beauty Community) & That’s OK!!! | Jackie Aina
Hi guys welcome back to my channel - girl Jackie. Ina take. A Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka, Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka, Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka, Chicka Chicka so today I have, a nice healthy roster, of new PR new products that I haven't tried in well. I haven't earned them at all today we're just gonna be giving you an update on what's new what's crack-a-lackin', what's popul, opping, all that good good RS, couture new glosses, have reloaded, refreshed. I never really, paid attention to. The fancy brow products, they just kind of came and went I never it just I like what I like and I'm a benefit. Brown girl I'm not gonna lie but lately I've been kind of cheating on benefit with Maybelline, and omma Beauty so if I can get open enough to do that I'm gonna give these fancy brow pencils a shot as well also I never got a chance to feature Carli bybel and Nastasia palette so we're, gonna get into all the good good on today's video I, was actually supposed to film as hours ago and then I. Kind. Of happened, and here we are I am oyster eyes in my skin right now for the sake of the tutorial but, like if you wanna ask me why is my skin so shiny and it's like cuz I have oily, skin obviously, I, mean also, I film, in really. Really high-powered, expensive, lights everything's, intensified, you know my skin is not as shiny, I think it's people exaggerated. In the comments sometimes some, of us have a natural glow and the rest of us are ashy so if you can't play then just be a sheet, I'm kidding I'm kidding I'm kidding that was my Tasha water cream by the way sometimes I'd like to do a little skincare, in my videos just to keep you know keep you guys oh there whatever also, side note I'm not gonna do this in the video I already use these earlier today but these eye patches, from pixie you guys are really good I use them for the. First time was. It these days. Yeah. It was these it was the fortify, firming, eye patches I used these in the afternoon this morning after I did my mask routine, they were really nice like I actually really. Liked the little serum they leave behind on my eyes yes I know my lid just I know it's claw Keable don't judge please leave, my lace out of this she didn't sign up to be a youtuber, I did, leave, her alone I'm a prime using my milk, hydro, grip, primer, shots, of his being like the primer of the year for me 2019. We haven't really seen a new, innovative. Primer, since, the tatcha still, what was that called the silk Candice base I was all about that primer 2018, and I feel like this is the next best thing when it comes to primers they're all kind of the same but this one. Has. Been it really has been the next best, thing since, the one from tatcha first, of all real quick if you got this far subscribe, don't be disrespectful, okay we're on the road to formally, representation. Is important, there is no one in the beauty community that looks like me that has hit that milestone yet let's work on it even if it's not me I just want to see you done anyway, I was talking to my best friend earlier spilling, a little tea. Will. Kombucha. If you will I always stress how important, it is to have, a, mix of friends that are like industry, friends, and non industry, friends this is the new loose setting powder from minted I haven't tried this yet I've been holding out for a, video for you guys and I pretty much love everything.
From Minted but and calm however I'm, really picky when, it comes to translucent, powder so, oh. Wow. This, looks darker. Than I thought this was gonna be a highlight powder this may just be the powder, that'sthat's, my whole face we're gonna see them oh you do know I love to set my primer with powder first so, I'm gonna go ahead and do that definitely, mattifying, soaking, up all the shine that y'all come all the time meanwhile, I haven't, found wrinkles. And have not been I'm 32 and all thing on that was good is good for something my, good this spring, I cannot, stick, to the point wow so constant, creator alright that's my main gig. We, can we can just say that that's my mate one main gigs right I think that, what. I was telling to her is that it is so important. To. Kind. Of like be so, much more than, just what. You put. Online the. Reason, why I say, that is because if. It wasn't a thing then, I wouldn't have to say that you know what I mean that was my maybelline, superstay stick. Foundation, I would like to use a really dense brush to blend out stick foundation so I'm gonna take this one from venti and. Just go yeah I. Just, feel like when you are getting. So. Much positive attention online and. People like you and people are constantly praising, you 24/7, it's very easy to get caught up in that it's a lot easier than you guys think and put, all of your self-worth and value in. That and not much more outside of that and that can be very dangerous I appreciate. And I try to cultivate as much as I possibly can the relationships, I have outside of YouTube because they kind of bring you back to reality in. A way in, a lot of ways also, because, this is for the moment for me I can come to you guys the same way with my friends right so if something. Isn't conveyed, in the most verbally, perfect way I apologize. In advance sometimes. When you film you, don't think in a way we're like oh okay, I can, predict, how this is going to be interpreted you're just kind of like venting, at that moment unfortunately. Those moments are documented, it's like even more, harshly. Scrutinized. Oh please just be graceful in that I'm just really just, speaking, right from, where, my head's at right now, in this moment even though I have had these thoughts for a while but anyway there's, a reason, why even. Since I was a kid there's always been a reason why I've never really, fit into like, groups or cliques, the number one thing I thinking has to do with is seeing, my, mom never. Really fitting into groups or cliques because I feel like the way we cultivate. Friendships, relationships they. Can either come from our parents we can be a byproduct of what our parents are or we can build a new life you know and and change our own preconceived. Destinies. Of how we were raised right I feel like I'm a combination of both my parents, don't, really have friends. I. Have friends, but. When it comes to group. That's. Where, from. Me like, it just never really fits, it, never really fits, or. When do you. When. Do you. When. Do you it becomes. That. Kind of vibe let's go back to the point okay basically what I was trying to say is growing up I always thought my parents as like these two standalone. Individuals. Who kind of like fought for, themselves thrived, for themselves and all, of the above y'all have been harassing, me about this brand l maquillage in, their complexion, products and they just sent me their concealers, which, is kind of strange like, I don't know why they sent the concealers, but never send the foundation, whatever. I don't really know much of anything about this launch but they seem. Like they're gonna be a pretty full coverage launch now, because we are chatting. In, this video very serious, topic I'm not really gonna give like a full review I'm just gonna kind of like move past all the products and keep moving I hope you guys don't mind but, of course I'll share my thoughts as they apply so, the first thing I'm gonna try out is, 16.25.
That. Looks a little too neutral. I want to use one as a corrector. This one is shade 22, and it's straight, Orange, I don't know if I want that under my eye though, I don't know fine. Fair, game and so, far these are actually. Pretty good colors, because I'm seeing a little bit of all of them seeing a little bit of neutral but. 15. To 5 is pretty nice and this is the one that I'm kind of peeping, that's the darkest shade by the way I lied I forgot one more that's a really good color I don't know if y'all see that here let me just give you my close up hand that's a good that's, a very rare color you see on neutral that is so, I'm using a little bit of. 16.5. Around. My mouth and it's, pretty red also, pretty neutral hopefully. It doesn't make my foundation. Look too wonky there's, a lot of really interesting takes. On being. A youtuber, and specifically. Being, a beauty. Influencer, like you guys also have to remember that like I've been on YouTube for 10 years and I always say, that because I feel like context. Is important, I don't say that because I'm childlike, are my way into making people feel like I'm grandfathered. In or something even, though I kind of am I used to think people were, like exaggerating. When they would say oh, the. Beauty industry is so catty no one gets along everyone's, fake everyone stops each other in the back no one is loyal to anyone no, one can keep any friends, everyone, smiles, in your face, and will still upload, pictures of you on the Instagram blah blah blah I always thought people were exaggerating. When they say stuff like that because to, an extent I do kind of still feel like that does rain true it is it's. A lie okay, it's a lot but this year okay. Okay. Oh that's, dark that's dark the thing is with under-eye correcting, you gotta find something that is like red enough but like don't also. Make. It look like you have dark circles and I feel like I might have just did, the opposite of what I want but it's okay it's blit okay it's blowing out okay all right this is a very weird formula it's like apply, snitch but then waters down girl, know what you mean by I'm fabulous. Fabulous, means, full coverage and I'm not getting full coverage by pipes so we need baby but I look at how nice though like oh my that blended out pretty good the Realty is there. Is a lot of sadly. A lot of truth to that a Dodge about, people, being fake and it's. I've. Never experienced, it to be true until like this year I know you guys see. It and you, guys know I don't talk about it and like we're not gonna sit, here and do. A tell-all it's, really not that deep I actually wanted to make this video one because I feel like you know I'm human I have a right to vent especially, to the people who support my channel sometimes. Where there's smoke there's fire and I I want, to turn an. Opportunity. To talk about you know maybe somebody else's out there is going through this similar, thing at a job or at school and they just feel like they don't really fit in and I honestly like, as the, role model to a lot of you guys that I am whether that's intentional or not like I wanted to talk about this because I want y'all to know like deep down from the bottom of my full.
Lace, 32. Inch chocolate. Brown oblong, lace, wig. You'll, be alright bro, like if I can be alright you, gonna be alright so I'm gonna take fifteen, as my, highlight, shade and I'm. Michael I these. Applicators. I have a love-hate, relationship, with these applicators. Like I like the way they apply the product, but I feel like once I go to blend this out it's gonna disappear so. That was 15 now I'm gonna take 13 point 5 because 14 was a little too pink for my liking and this is like a really nice buttery. Yellow golden. Shade and I'm gonna also double. Up on these two I feel like these two are gonna be nice together I don't know if I'm having, a tough time as, an influencer, it's not that I'm having a freaking awesome time you know I am, living a life I never thought I would ever be able to do 10, even, 20 even. 5 years ago never, saw these things for me I'm using. The bellas brush now I do wish, that sometimes the circumstances. Of the life that I'm living were, a little different but you know what this, is just the cards that have been handed, to me and I'm gonna do the best that I can in the position that I am to, make the most out of them and that's what I think I just do most. Of the time in general like that's why I'm sitting here and I have this platform that's why I make videos today oh. Damn. I, didn't even know I had this my, bad let. Me stop cuz I'm getting way too concealer, happy I'm scared, now I know that there's a lot of stuff you guys pick up one I do realize, that even, just by me making this video it is gonna open up possibly, for more speculation, what I don't want to do is create, an environment where. People feel like because, they saw me talking about this that they now have to go trying, to figure out who it's about or what it's about that's kind of not, really the point at all because like I can handle my own and I do handle my own put, it this way the only reason why I'm even talking about most of this and eyeshadow now is because it's already been privately addressed so the difference between a lot of other people is I actually pull up in person you, know I don't just run this little show here first, but I actually pull, up in person, what's good. A lot. Of people can't relate including, your face but no. But seriously though like I, don't. Want anybody to feel like they have to go crusade, I'm having me please don't sometimes, I find that kind of corny especially, when you do it blindly, you don't even know and then you come for them please don't do that please, look at all this blend it out not too shabby. It's kind of sheer, definitely. A lot more sheer, I don't think f uck. I'm flawless, is an appropriate name for this concealer, because when I think of flawless. I think of completely, free, of any flaws, I think, of complete, spackle. I think, of complete, complete. Block, me out coverage. And I'm, not getting that but I do think it is a beautiful, formula, and it just looks like my skin and, it's. Doing what needs to be done at them, at a minimum, at a bare minimal, level if that makes sense I'm put on some warning I really. Really, really enjoy, being a youtuber, I think, there are so, many amazing. Positive. People that I met in this industry I, really.
Want To hold onto those experiences, as much as I possibly can, and try, to focus on that more, than I do trying, to figure out you know why you're not liked by somebody. Or why you are liked by said whatever ask yourself, in five years is this gonna matter probably, not and if the answer is probably not or just flat-out no then, you gotta move on like who cares I'm, gonna take, 16.25. And do, a little bit of comp, nope not, dark enough and to neutral nope not gonna do it on this side to even it out I meant to grab seventeen, there we go, that's why I was confused, seventeen. Is really. Neutral I was kind of inspired to talk about this in the video because my girl Rocio and I just love her like she's just such like a gym in this community she tweeted, about how she, also feels, like she doesn't really fit in she never really feels like she's fit in or I guess she was like saying like when am I gonna fit into the industry or you, know like just yeah just like what, am I gonna fit somewhere and thought, it was so. Personal, to me that I spoke on this because what I told her in response to her tweet is baby girl like, I have. Never, fit in anywhere. And it was the time why I didn't fit in where I really was able to like hone in and focus on, my craft and perfect, my content, and take. A look at like why people weren't and you're like I got to focus on so many other things when I wasn't focused on what everyone else thought of me or why. Everyone, else wasn't accepting me if that makes sense so I spoke to that and I said that to her because it was something that was extremely personal. Because I was like girl if you only knew it doesn't get easier at, the top either like I'm at the top of course I don't have the most subscribers, on YouTube but I'm definitely not a beginner been here for a while pretty, notable voice in the community the, beauty community the black community, communities. In general even, for me like you would think it gets easier, once you become pop in I try not, to become jaded I truly, do try not to become jaded from this industry like when you're just like over it and you just kind of like stop participating, and you're stopped going to events and stuff and you stop when it trips and there are people like that that I'm just like girl you got to put yourself out there if you want to be like accepted, and now I never I hate this but like I understand, those those influencers. Who have just been sold withdrawn, now I now, understand. Them more than I more. Than I ever, have. In my entire life, I thought I told it, now. For, people who are you know aspiring. Influencers. Or influencers. Who are already, doing, it making it growing, climbing, all that good stuff if you don't see. Yourself as being accepted. By a particular group of people or, just being accepted, in general, honestly. I'ma, just say that's, kind of like what you, gotta prepare for don't get so bummed out if you, aren't, being. Accepted. The, way that, other people are because, it, is not an experience that's unique to just you it is, definitely, kind. Of to be expected I. Guess, I'm trying is what I'm trying to say I'm setting my under eye now with my mented powder. That. Sucked up the oil real, nice I'm. Using the brown one by the way I'm also gonna set the center, of my forehead, gang. Unfortunately. One, thing that I can say from, experience is. That when. You, aren't. Accepted. By. One person. In a clique it affects, the dynamics of the entire, clique, and I just, decided for myself that I am too. Free, thinking, of an individual. To participate in, that at all it, doesn't work for me because you know what I'm gonna ask questions, and I'm gonna be like but wait a minute but why don't you like her but she didn't do anything wrong, like I'm sometimes, loyal, to a fault, but I know how to call a spade a spade the, thing is is I won't do it in front of your girls I'll pull you aside and be like girl you definitely you got me try it like what are you doing girl I'm loyal to a fault but not to the detriment, of going. Out of my way to not. Befriend, someone just because one person says, I shouldn't, unfortunately. There is a lot of that there really is a lot of that because I've, just been in too many situations where I'm just like something's. Just not adding up, I'm gonna go back to shade. This. Concealer, and I've. Been doing this lately with like liquid. Concealers, and foundations lately. Instead of my bronzer, and I'm gonna blend this house my, little fake a nose contour, without actually, having to contour, you know it's like the way this looks when you blend it up into your brows you know dr. Brown spent time Vale's the, real truth, the truth she'll come out now I'm gonna take my minted bronzer this is season 1 from, the Ashley, Blaine Featherston collab this dark one here, and I'm gonna take that I think this would make a really nice bronzing, brush this is nabela's, brush from her ELF collab i forgot i think we use is for blush last time but you know what she kind of hit different, with bronzer, nabela, is somebody, that i truly.
Think Is such a gem, in this industry, she's such a breath of fresh air when, I have friends like, her, like deepika like Alyssa like, Nima then. Don't I have to fit in we separately, fit in somewhere, I truly, do have a wonderful. Inspiring. Group, of young women that I admire, and look up to and, I don't think anybody, in this industry is trying to like go out of their way to be it well that's not true there are sometimes people that do go out of their way to just be, downright, not good person, it's, very rare though as far as like but not fitting in it's not at all to say that those people are bad I'm sorry I'm just trying to get comfortable these. Aren't bad people you guys and that's why I don't want anybody to feel like they have to go out and like verbally, unleash, someone please don't I feel like that's very childish, I'm gonna take care of myself I know how to handle my own I just feel like everybody. Is just doing what they got to do to try to fit in sometimes, it means not being so what the hell is. This, okay. I was not expecting this I was expecting a spooly but you know what I'll sure, I remember those are teeth brushes I used to love those brushes but look that's, exactly what, the opposite end of the brow pencil looks like not expecting, that but okay a lot of nice people in this industry who are also like, I. Mean. You can be a really nice person and also be really fake and inauthentic you can two things can be right at the same time I'm just saying. Personally. Like what I struggle with is like nice to your face but like these people don't actually support you which also brings me to another thing I got a lot of comments I saw a lot of chatter about this with my palette coming out I really, do appreciate people's, support of, me. And like I know that you guys want to see me do well and I know that you guys want to see me get the support that I often lend to other people I totally understand that but I would rather focus on the people who did support my palette and who did do looks it on my palette and instead, I, saw a lot, of people you know making a big fuss, about wasn't. Talking about the palette and it's okay, you know like I don't think there's anything wrong with pointing, that out in a respectful, like we can have a healthy discussion about it that's totally fine but I, feel like that was.
Bigger Than. What it needed to be in my opinion I do feel like it took away from so many of the people who really really did like calm through, and support that palette and there were so many people who did you know so the shade that I'm using in the affinity brow pencil is black brown. This. Is dark brown so black brown must be darker than brown. Dark. Brown yeah. You, see no. You see the precision. Ma'am I don't know what I was expecting but it definitely wasn't, this I thought thin sea brow was gonna give us something real soft, and real bushy but, this is giving me precision, honey we're shaping honey you know I don't do the concealer, on my brows anymore I like a really. Waxy. Hard, consistency. With my brow pencils and I do it on top of foundation so it's got to be even more waxy, and hard on top of that it can't be too soft can't be too plushy it just looks terrible. Over foundation so this one I really like oh this, dark brown is a really. Pretty Coco, E Brown cut that's so, pretty I'm gonna, use that right. At the head of my brow and draw upward, you, know what I took, a quick Instagram, break and I saw a quote that really, resonated. With my spirit, and it said never regret being a good person to the wrong people because it says a lot more about you, everything, about them never regrets, being, a good person, to the wrong people that's, a good way to actually segue, into the, continued, part of this conversation and, that is never, change who you are for, anybody you, know don't become hard as a rock because, you're so used to being stepped. On and, and walked all over like I get it I get it I come from both sides of the fence because when I was younger I was believe it or not such a pushover and, like I couldn't be assertive. And I couldn't make decisions for myself I couldn't stand up for myself the way that I really confidently. Can now and. This. Is this new you a palette, it looks really pretty I'm wearing, pink and stop sorry about if you don't like it okay I like pink chaddi I'll complain about that I'm. Gonna use the. Shade, kiss, me and garments, oh. I. Was just saying how it's, a lot of things slide now, I'm an adult I find myself sometimes I have to tell myself to calm tone it down Jackie, like you know don't let that to keep that ego in check I'm, working on finding a pretty good balance between the, old me who was a pushover and, was, a little too nice and me. Now. 10-15. Years later who. I go a little too hard you know I'm learning. To find that balance now, are we is so sweet by the way she's definitely I, would say one of the few youtubers, who just hasn't, switched up I'm so happy for her phone, call her for a long time and I feel like a BH is like her first big, big big major collab, I could be wrong I mean she, did misguided, but like for beauty though now, that she has her pallid with a pH I'm pretty sure this was like her biggest make of collapse at 8 I think it's amazing, she made a palette that works for her complexion and she made a palette that she likes and just.
Like I did with like a lab like I don't believe in people making collapse for the sake of it like don't put your name on something that you don't believe in period, when I made my palette, everybody was like we thought she was gonna do neon why. When, have you ever seen me wear like I rarely, do that why would you ever think that hello. The. Action reminds me a lot of why started my channel because when it comes to black road and makeup it's like they either make you really soft or they make you look like a page, out of them at like I don't want to look like eclectic. Just because I have dark skin and really. As some people like to describe as, strong. Features, I don't want to look like an, editorial, piece all the time I want makeup to look pretty so I made a power that's pretty for me thank, you and Carly has done the same needless to say she's, obviously on the opposite side, of this shade, spectrum, as I am and do. I think it's the most world, I brush, is. What. I was about to say is that I love the, color scheme of this palette but it, is definitely a palette, if you are a chocolate girl with myself like you're probably gonna have to use this with something else because as far as like, this, except. For moo-moo looks like a really cute shimmer shade I wouldn't, be able to use most of the mattes in this palette, they would definitely, read, Ashley, I like Stev is that stab receive I'm not sure the shippers on all the way here for like I love mandala. I love Libra, I love Oh a I, love aura I love my angels I love Jodi libras. But like all the shippers are bomb real, quick though I'm gonna highlight using, my Fenty, Paulo, at, me when, did this come out I feel like I don't think I've actually used this in a video yet, oh oh, she oh, she, is, I see honey, so. Pretty though well that being said what Bible might be a little too light so here's here's my module me take my pallet I'm gonna take Pinker, and Bible, and mix them both together I'm gonna start off by sleeping, them both into, my crease area and all over, my eyelid, and the two of these colors together, actually. Are looking real tasty, that's, pretty, then, I'm gonna jump into. Stab. Which, is this this burgundy is bomb like, that needs to be all over my lid ASAP, now look that she just did and she, put like basically stuff like all over her lid and made like a red smoke that's such a Carly look was so pretty so, Amy who I'm gonna sweet step. Over. To. Are pretty that. Is. Gorgeous. So far love, that I'm gonna love stead, even, more once. I sweep, her along, my, bottom lash line. Okay. And then Bible. I'm gonna sleep right underneath. It, to buff and soften, it out that. One's pretty with my eyeliner I'm just saying okay or bra is, really. Doing something to me so I'm gonna take that and, place on the center of my lid. This. Is so pretty, Harley, oh my god aura is freaking gorgeous that is so, pretty, it's like chunky, glittery - I see how she kind of played around with texture, so there's some better a little bit more chunkier, foil II like, mu aura and my.
Angels, And Jodie is just all shimmer, Libra, is all shimmer mandala, looks like it's all shimmer - yeah, these, are a little bit more flat and these have a little bit more texture, on the bottom row but baby aura is, the prettiest color I mean I like all the shimmers but or is my favorite this is so gorgeous I was gonna put glitter on top and. Now. I'm gonna do it even more so, cuz, I just really, wanted to use this glitter I feel like it was gonna look really pretty on top of this look this is from JD glow cosmetics, in the shade X. See, wait. Is this the one that I wanted I think I actually wanted. To use sherbert. Yeah, yeah, you know what I'll use exclusive, and sherbert hold on let me open these show ya how pretty they are they were a little leaky, though the packaging, probably, not ideal for travel, but the glitters are absolutely. Gorgeous so we just gonna beat my at home glitters. Oh no oh no hand me I'm using the exclusive that's, it I made I made this exclusive, was so pretty cuz it has like purple, and gold and champagne in it the camera is just not even doing it justice and then exclusive. Is a little bit more pink a little bit more yellow so, I'm using I. Decided. To use exclusive. On top of orab this is bomb this. Is its sweetie, I'm, ready for my eyes to look like jewels honey this looks gorgeous. Don't worry glad I wore pink again too, damn bad glitter, everywhere girl. Probably, the one time I, regret doing eyes last because, honey so for my lash I'm gonna take level up from unscripted, beauty shots oh my girl crispy, this, is her new lash line her lashes are actually pretty bombed these, there's a banger, throw this. Actually looks a lot like my, drugstore B makeup story I just did, but. In person is telling a different story so I'm gonna stick with that damn on this is dry I need to get. My life together um I'm, gonna take Moss this, lip, lip. Glaze from, Lime Crime I love these things and lately what I've been doing instead of wearing the look that's really dark oh my god lately, I've been doing to like line, my lips for Lu Colusa cause I'll just take a dark brown liquid. Lipstick and line my lips like that I just like the way that that looks. And. These lip lasers are so soft and creamy girl then I'm gonna fill in the rest of my lips using the. Liquid. Matte lips with Too Faced in the name suck, it's I'm not, telling, you that's, what you gotta do I'm just saying that's the name of a lip product I thought this would be a really nice muted, mauve to, go with the eyes and, I was right right, yes. The nail on my thumb did come off I'm gonna hear it these top two gotta be my favorite formulas. For liquid matte lips hands, down Lime Crime really. I did something with these lip glazes I mean to face Ben did some with these but Lime Crime has all these these, all come in basically new colors so love. Them they're so good now I'm gonna finish up with a pink. Then. I'm gonna finish up with the pink gloss this one's from artist to tour his newly, relaunched lip glosses I remember back in the day I was, so obsessed with the Sun sensor, and it's, actually, so this day one of my favorite, and chocolate, nudes for brown girls I think he changed the formula and the packaging, is also different, so it's a new and improved applicator. We, love upgrades, shops artists Couture and the shade that I'm using is shameless. So it's not uncensored, the new this one is the pink nude oh it's. So pretty mmm. There's, a massage, minty, smell this, applicator, really does coat, the, lips really, nicely and. I. Always think I'll say y'all can see my hair I was kind of proud of how I did my hair I, mean.
I Don't know if you watch this video while doing dishes or, babysitting, your kids or helping with math homework I don't know what you got going on in your life I know we all have our own stuff but I thank you for taking some time out of your day just, to spend it with me I mean I know that this kind of ended up being an impromptu vent, session, sometimes we need that I feel like all content. Creators would have a lot less problems if we talk, things out and if we vented, if we see therapist but, for real though I guess the one thing that I want to take away from this is everything. Is, not what it seems, online all that glitters is not gold for. Those of you which a lot of you who do watch me are aspiring, influencers. And content creators from whatever industry, I just wanted to let, you guys know that no, matter what level you're at one, watch, how. You treat, people and how, you talk, to people because, you. May need that person, on your way back down someday and I'm not saying I wish anybody, to go down anywhere I don't not saying anything but watch how you treat people on your way up because if you ever see yourself coming back down you may, need. A hand, here, and there and also I just want you guys to know that like it doesn't get easy once you get to a certain number or once you get to a certain subscriber, count and I, deal. With stuff too I deal with not feeling like I fit into it's, totally normal it's totally, okay, I feel like I'm the most proud of the fact that when you guys come to my channel what you see is what you get and like I say it like I mean it you may not always like what I say but it's me and I stand by it but you know the beauty industry is we're, here to make things look great so unfortunately. There are some people that I've been fans of I get to know them and privately, they're not that nice so, that. Sucks too and that can be really hard to cope with especially. When it's not like a oh you she said she's having a bad day girl like leave her she'll be cool tomorrow you know not like that nobody's perfect I'm not perfect I have my off days too but I mean like people who go out of their way to, be really, vindictive and mean I mean a lot of that does unfortunately, happen behind the scenes from. The. People that you would least expect it from and it, sucks but you deal with it it doesn't, make or break you as a person, what, you got to do is find anybody. Like. Just find anybody, that can help get, you out of that and don't seek validation in, places where you don't meet it because let me tell you something no one ever needed to validate me on my way up and no. One is gonna need to validate me at. This point I mean I'm damn near 4 million can you name a single person who's put me on. No. You can't you absolutely, cannot no, you can't. Okay period, I'm sometimes what needs to be done can, be done with or without a, pack. Of wolves to help you get there there's nothing wrong with wolves wolves are nice animals, but, you know I'm saying crazy cuz I feel like people think just because influencers, live in LA everyone's friends like we're all Barbie dolls that you can just you play with her you. Know. I have my own. Personality. And I'm, free thinking, and like I don't maybe. Mess with that person but hey I'll see you it's branch trip one, takes shots. That's. All I have to say on today's video hopefully, you can relate hopefully, you learned something and hopefully you don't take this F shade because, it's just not she. It's just me talking with my girl and. My boos and, that's that now while I'm over here looking good what, you're gonna do is watch another video support your girl support, content core support black, content, creators and support all of the work that I put into my channel, to keep y'all matched. Thank. You.