I Don’t Fit In (the Beauty Community) & That’s OK!!! | Jackie Aina

I Don’t Fit In (the Beauty Community) & That’s OK!!! | Jackie Aina

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Hi guys welcome back to my channel - girl Jackie. Ina take. A Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka, Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka, Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka Chicka, Chicka Chicka so today I have, a nice healthy roster, of new PR new products that I haven't tried in well. I haven't earned them at all today we're just gonna be giving you an update on what's new what's crack-a-lackin', what's popul, opping, all that good good RS, couture new glosses, have reloaded, refreshed. I never really, paid attention to. The fancy brow products, they just kind of came and went I never it just I like what I like and I'm a benefit. Brown girl I'm not gonna lie but lately I've been kind of cheating on benefit with Maybelline, and omma Beauty so if I can get open enough to do that I'm gonna give these fancy brow pencils a shot as well also I never got a chance to feature Carli bybel and Nastasia palette so we're, gonna get into all the good good on today's video I, was actually supposed to film as hours ago and then I. Kind. Of happened, and here we are I am oyster eyes in my skin right now for the sake of the tutorial but, like if you wanna ask me why is my skin so shiny and it's like cuz I have oily, skin obviously, I, mean also, I film, in really. Really high-powered, expensive, lights everything's, intensified, you know my skin is not as shiny, I think it's people exaggerated. In the comments sometimes some, of us have a natural glow and the rest of us are ashy so if you can't play then just be a sheet, I'm kidding I'm kidding I'm kidding that was my Tasha water cream by the way sometimes I'd like to do a little skincare, in my videos just to keep you know keep you guys oh there whatever also, side note I'm not gonna do this in the video I already use these earlier today but these eye patches, from pixie you guys are really good I use them for the. First time was. It these days. Yeah. It was these it was the fortify, firming, eye patches I used these in the afternoon this morning after I did my mask routine, they were really nice like I actually really. Liked the little serum they leave behind on my eyes yes I know my lid just I know it's claw Keable don't judge please leave, my lace out of this she didn't sign up to be a youtuber, I did, leave, her alone I'm a prime using my milk, hydro, grip, primer, shots, of his being like the primer of the year for me 2019. We haven't really seen a new, innovative. Primer, since, the tatcha still, what was that called the silk Candice base I was all about that primer 2018, and I feel like this is the next best thing when it comes to primers they're all kind of the same but this one. Has. Been it really has been the next best, thing since, the one from tatcha first, of all real quick if you got this far subscribe, don't be disrespectful, okay we're on the road to formally, representation. Is important, there is no one in the beauty community that looks like me that has hit that milestone yet let's work on it even if it's not me I just want to see you done anyway, I was talking to my best friend earlier spilling, a little tea. Will. Kombucha. If you will I always stress how important, it is to have, a, mix of friends that are like industry, friends, and non industry, friends this is the new loose setting powder from minted I haven't tried this yet I've been holding out for a, video for you guys and I pretty much love everything.

From Minted but and calm however I'm, really picky when, it comes to translucent, powder so, oh. Wow. This, looks darker. Than I thought this was gonna be a highlight powder this may just be the powder, that'sthat's, my whole face we're gonna see them oh you do know I love to set my primer with powder first so, I'm gonna go ahead and do that definitely, mattifying, soaking, up all the shine that y'all come all the time meanwhile, I haven't, found wrinkles. And have not been I'm 32 and all thing on that was good is good for something my, good this spring, I cannot, stick, to the point wow so constant, creator alright that's my main gig. We, can we can just say that that's my mate one main gigs right I think that, what. I was telling to her is that it is so important. To. Kind. Of like be so, much more than, just what. You put. Online the. Reason, why I say, that is because if. It wasn't a thing then, I wouldn't have to say that you know what I mean that was my maybelline, superstay stick. Foundation, I would like to use a really dense brush to blend out stick foundation so I'm gonna take this one from venti and. Just go yeah I. Just, feel like when you are getting. So. Much positive attention online and. People like you and people are constantly praising, you 24/7, it's very easy to get caught up in that it's a lot easier than you guys think and put, all of your self-worth and value in. That and not much more outside of that and that can be very dangerous I appreciate. And I try to cultivate as much as I possibly can the relationships, I have outside of YouTube because they kind of bring you back to reality in. A way in, a lot of ways also, because, this is for the moment for me I can come to you guys the same way with my friends right so if something. Isn't conveyed, in the most verbally, perfect way I apologize. In advance sometimes. When you film you, don't think in a way we're like oh okay, I can, predict, how this is going to be interpreted you're just kind of like venting, at that moment unfortunately. Those moments are documented, it's like even more, harshly. Scrutinized. Oh please just be graceful in that I'm just really just, speaking, right from, where, my head's at right now, in this moment even though I have had these thoughts for a while but anyway there's, a reason, why even. Since I was a kid there's always been a reason why I've never really, fit into like, groups or cliques, the number one thing I thinking has to do with is seeing, my, mom never. Really fitting into groups or cliques because I feel like the way we cultivate. Friendships, relationships they. Can either come from our parents we can be a byproduct of what our parents are or we can build a new life you know and and change our own preconceived. Destinies. Of how we were raised right I feel like I'm a combination of both my parents, don't, really have friends. I. Have friends, but. When it comes to group. That's. Where, from. Me like, it just never really fits, it, never really fits, or. When do you. When. Do you. When. Do you it becomes. That. Kind of vibe let's go back to the point okay basically what I was trying to say is growing up I always thought my parents as like these two standalone. Individuals. Who kind of like fought for, themselves thrived, for themselves and all, of the above y'all have been harassing, me about this brand l maquillage in, their complexion, products and they just sent me their concealers, which, is kind of strange like, I don't know why they sent the concealers, but never send the foundation, whatever. I don't really know much of anything about this launch but they seem. Like they're gonna be a pretty full coverage launch now, because we are chatting. In, this video very serious, topic I'm not really gonna give like a full review I'm just gonna kind of like move past all the products and keep moving I hope you guys don't mind but, of course I'll share my thoughts as they apply so, the first thing I'm gonna try out is, 16.25.

That. Looks a little too neutral. I want to use one as a corrector. This one is shade 22, and it's straight, Orange, I don't know if I want that under my eye though, I don't know fine. Fair, game and so, far these are actually. Pretty good colors, because I'm seeing a little bit of all of them seeing a little bit of neutral but. 15. To 5 is pretty nice and this is the one that I'm kind of peeping, that's the darkest shade by the way I lied I forgot one more that's a really good color I don't know if y'all see that here let me just give you my close up hand that's a good that's, a very rare color you see on neutral that is so, I'm using a little bit of. 16.5. Around. My mouth and it's, pretty red also, pretty neutral hopefully. It doesn't make my foundation. Look too wonky there's, a lot of really interesting takes. On being. A youtuber, and specifically. Being, a beauty. Influencer, like you guys also have to remember that like I've been on YouTube for 10 years and I always say, that because I feel like context. Is important, I don't say that because I'm childlike, are my way into making people feel like I'm grandfathered. In or something even, though I kind of am I used to think people were, like exaggerating. When they would say oh, the. Beauty industry is so catty no one gets along everyone's, fake everyone stops each other in the back no one is loyal to anyone no, one can keep any friends, everyone, smiles, in your face, and will still upload, pictures of you on the Instagram blah blah blah I always thought people were exaggerating. When they say stuff like that because to, an extent I do kind of still feel like that does rain true it is it's. A lie okay, it's a lot but this year okay. Okay. Oh that's, dark that's dark the thing is with under-eye correcting, you gotta find something that is like red enough but like don't also. Make. It look like you have dark circles and I feel like I might have just did, the opposite of what I want but it's okay it's blit okay it's blowing out okay all right this is a very weird formula it's like apply, snitch but then waters down girl, know what you mean by I'm fabulous. Fabulous, means, full coverage and I'm not getting full coverage by pipes so we need baby but I look at how nice though like oh my that blended out pretty good the Realty is there. Is a lot of sadly. A lot of truth to that a Dodge about, people, being fake and it's. I've. Never experienced, it to be true until like this year I know you guys see. It and you, guys know I don't talk about it and like we're not gonna sit, here and do. A tell-all it's, really not that deep I actually wanted to make this video one because I feel like you know I'm human I have a right to vent especially, to the people who support my channel sometimes. Where there's smoke there's fire and I I want, to turn an. Opportunity. To talk about you know maybe somebody else's out there is going through this similar, thing at a job or at school and they just feel like they don't really fit in and I honestly like, as the, role model to a lot of you guys that I am whether that's intentional or not like I wanted to talk about this because I want y'all to know like deep down from the bottom of my full.

Lace, 32. Inch chocolate. Brown oblong, lace, wig. You'll, be alright bro, like if I can be alright you, gonna be alright so I'm gonna take fifteen, as my, highlight, shade and I'm. Michael I these. Applicators. I have a love-hate, relationship, with these applicators. Like I like the way they apply the product, but I feel like once I go to blend this out it's gonna disappear so. That was 15 now I'm gonna take 13 point 5 because 14 was a little too pink for my liking and this is like a really nice buttery. Yellow golden. Shade and I'm gonna also double. Up on these two I feel like these two are gonna be nice together I don't know if I'm having, a tough time as, an influencer, it's not that I'm having a freaking awesome time you know I am, living a life I never thought I would ever be able to do 10, even, 20 even. 5 years ago never, saw these things for me I'm using. The bellas brush now I do wish, that sometimes the circumstances. Of the life that I'm living were, a little different but you know what this, is just the cards that have been handed, to me and I'm gonna do the best that I can in the position that I am to, make the most out of them and that's what I think I just do most. Of the time in general like that's why I'm sitting here and I have this platform that's why I make videos today oh. Damn. I, didn't even know I had this my, bad let. Me stop cuz I'm getting way too concealer, happy I'm scared, now I know that there's a lot of stuff you guys pick up one I do realize, that even, just by me making this video it is gonna open up possibly, for more speculation, what I don't want to do is create, an environment where. People feel like because, they saw me talking about this that they now have to go trying, to figure out who it's about or what it's about that's kind of not, really the point at all because like I can handle my own and I do handle my own put, it this way the only reason why I'm even talking about most of this and eyeshadow now is because it's already been privately addressed so the difference between a lot of other people is I actually pull up in person you, know I don't just run this little show here first, but I actually pull, up in person, what's good. A lot. Of people can't relate including, your face but no. But seriously though like I, don't. Want anybody to feel like they have to go crusade, I'm having me please don't sometimes, I find that kind of corny especially, when you do it blindly, you don't even know and then you come for them please don't do that please, look at all this blend it out not too shabby. It's kind of sheer, definitely. A lot more sheer, I don't think f uck. I'm flawless, is an appropriate name for this concealer, because when I think of flawless. I think of completely, free, of any flaws, I think, of complete, spackle. I think, of complete, complete. Block, me out coverage. And I'm, not getting that but I do think it is a beautiful, formula, and it just looks like my skin and, it's. Doing what needs to be done at them, at a minimum, at a bare minimal, level if that makes sense I'm put on some warning I really. Really, really enjoy, being a youtuber, I think, there are so, many amazing. Positive. People that I met in this industry I, really.

Want To hold onto those experiences, as much as I possibly can, and try, to focus on that more, than I do trying, to figure out you know why you're not liked by somebody. Or why you are liked by said whatever ask yourself, in five years is this gonna matter probably, not and if the answer is probably not or just flat-out no then, you gotta move on like who cares I'm, gonna take, 16.25. And do, a little bit of comp, nope not, dark enough and to neutral nope not gonna do it on this side to even it out I meant to grab seventeen, there we go, that's why I was confused, seventeen. Is really. Neutral I was kind of inspired to talk about this in the video because my girl Rocio and I just love her like she's just such like a gym in this community she tweeted, about how she, also feels, like she doesn't really fit in she never really feels like she's fit in or I guess she was like saying like when am I gonna fit into the industry or you, know like just yeah just like what, am I gonna fit somewhere and thought, it was so. Personal, to me that I spoke on this because what I told her in response to her tweet is baby girl like, I have. Never, fit in anywhere. And it was the time why I didn't fit in where I really was able to like hone in and focus on, my craft and perfect, my content, and take. A look at like why people weren't and you're like I got to focus on so many other things when I wasn't focused on what everyone else thought of me or why. Everyone, else wasn't accepting me if that makes sense so I spoke to that and I said that to her because it was something that was extremely personal. Because I was like girl if you only knew it doesn't get easier at, the top either like I'm at the top of course I don't have the most subscribers, on YouTube but I'm definitely not a beginner been here for a while pretty, notable voice in the community the, beauty community the black community, communities. In general even, for me like you would think it gets easier, once you become pop in I try not, to become jaded I truly, do try not to become jaded from this industry like when you're just like over it and you just kind of like stop participating, and you're stopped going to events and stuff and you stop when it trips and there are people like that that I'm just like girl you got to put yourself out there if you want to be like accepted, and now I never I hate this but like I understand, those those influencers. Who have just been sold withdrawn, now I now, understand. Them more than I more. Than I ever, have. In my entire life, I thought I told it, now. For, people who are you know aspiring. Influencers. Or influencers. Who are already, doing, it making it growing, climbing, all that good stuff if you don't see. Yourself as being accepted. By a particular group of people or, just being accepted, in general, honestly. I'ma, just say that's, kind of like what you, gotta prepare for don't get so bummed out if you, aren't, being. Accepted. The, way that, other people are because, it, is not an experience that's unique to just you it is, definitely, kind. Of to be expected I. Guess, I'm trying is what I'm trying to say I'm setting my under eye now with my mented powder. That. Sucked up the oil real, nice I'm. Using the brown one by the way I'm also gonna set the center, of my forehead, gang. Unfortunately. One, thing that I can say from, experience is. That when. You, aren't. Accepted. By. One person. In a clique it affects, the dynamics of the entire, clique, and I just, decided for myself that I am too. Free, thinking, of an individual. To participate in, that at all it, doesn't work for me because you know what I'm gonna ask questions, and I'm gonna be like but wait a minute but why don't you like her but she didn't do anything wrong, like I'm sometimes, loyal, to a fault, but I know how to call a spade a spade the, thing is is I won't do it in front of your girls I'll pull you aside and be like girl you definitely you got me try it like what are you doing girl I'm loyal to a fault but not to the detriment, of going. Out of my way to not. Befriend, someone just because one person says, I shouldn't, unfortunately. There is a lot of that there really is a lot of that because I've, just been in too many situations where I'm just like something's. Just not adding up, I'm gonna go back to shade. This. Concealer, and I've. Been doing this lately with like liquid. Concealers, and foundations lately. Instead of my bronzer, and I'm gonna blend this house my, little fake a nose contour, without actually, having to contour, you know it's like the way this looks when you blend it up into your brows you know dr. Brown spent time Vale's the, real truth, the truth she'll come out now I'm gonna take my minted bronzer this is season 1 from, the Ashley, Blaine Featherston collab this dark one here, and I'm gonna take that I think this would make a really nice bronzing, brush this is nabela's, brush from her ELF collab i forgot i think we use is for blush last time but you know what she kind of hit different, with bronzer, nabela, is somebody, that i truly.

Think Is such a gem, in this industry, she's such a breath of fresh air when, I have friends like, her, like deepika like Alyssa like, Nima then. Don't I have to fit in we separately, fit in somewhere, I truly, do have a wonderful. Inspiring. Group, of young women that I admire, and look up to and, I don't think anybody, in this industry is trying to like go out of their way to be it well that's not true there are sometimes people that do go out of their way to just be, downright, not good person, it's, very rare though as far as like but not fitting in it's not at all to say that those people are bad I'm sorry I'm just trying to get comfortable these. Aren't bad people you guys and that's why I don't want anybody to feel like they have to go out and like verbally, unleash, someone please don't I feel like that's very childish, I'm gonna take care of myself I know how to handle my own I just feel like everybody. Is just doing what they got to do to try to fit in sometimes, it means not being so what the hell is. This, okay. I was not expecting this I was expecting a spooly but you know what I'll sure, I remember those are teeth brushes I used to love those brushes but look that's, exactly what, the opposite end of the brow pencil looks like not expecting, that but okay a lot of nice people in this industry who are also like, I. Mean. You can be a really nice person and also be really fake and inauthentic you can two things can be right at the same time I'm just saying. Personally. Like what I struggle with is like nice to your face but like these people don't actually support you which also brings me to another thing I got a lot of comments I saw a lot of chatter about this with my palette coming out I really, do appreciate people's, support of, me. And like I know that you guys want to see me do well and I know that you guys want to see me get the support that I often lend to other people I totally understand that but I would rather focus on the people who did support my palette and who did do looks it on my palette and instead, I, saw a lot, of people you know making a big fuss, about wasn't. Talking about the palette and it's okay, you know like I don't think there's anything wrong with pointing, that out in a respectful, like we can have a healthy discussion about it that's totally fine but I, feel like that was.

Bigger Than. What it needed to be in my opinion I do feel like it took away from so many of the people who really really did like calm through, and support that palette and there were so many people who did you know so the shade that I'm using in the affinity brow pencil is black brown. This. Is dark brown so black brown must be darker than brown. Dark. Brown yeah. You, see no. You see the precision. Ma'am I don't know what I was expecting but it definitely wasn't, this I thought thin sea brow was gonna give us something real soft, and real bushy but, this is giving me precision, honey we're shaping honey you know I don't do the concealer, on my brows anymore I like a really. Waxy. Hard, consistency. With my brow pencils and I do it on top of foundation so it's got to be even more waxy, and hard on top of that it can't be too soft can't be too plushy it just looks terrible. Over foundation so this one I really like oh this, dark brown is a really. Pretty Coco, E Brown cut that's so, pretty I'm gonna, use that right. At the head of my brow and draw upward, you, know what I took, a quick Instagram, break and I saw a quote that really, resonated. With my spirit, and it said never regret being a good person to the wrong people because it says a lot more about you, everything, about them never regrets, being, a good person, to the wrong people that's, a good way to actually segue, into the, continued, part of this conversation and, that is never, change who you are for, anybody you, know don't become hard as a rock because, you're so used to being stepped. On and, and walked all over like I get it I get it I come from both sides of the fence because when I was younger I was believe it or not such a pushover and, like I couldn't be assertive. And I couldn't make decisions for myself I couldn't stand up for myself the way that I really confidently. Can now and. This. Is this new you a palette, it looks really pretty I'm wearing, pink and stop sorry about if you don't like it okay I like pink chaddi I'll complain about that I'm. Gonna use the. Shade, kiss, me and garments, oh. I. Was just saying how it's, a lot of things slide now, I'm an adult I find myself sometimes I have to tell myself to calm tone it down Jackie, like you know don't let that to keep that ego in check I'm, working on finding a pretty good balance between the, old me who was a pushover and, was, a little too nice and me. Now. 10-15. Years later who. I go a little too hard you know I'm learning. To find that balance now, are we is so sweet by the way she's definitely I, would say one of the few youtubers, who just hasn't, switched up I'm so happy for her phone, call her for a long time and I feel like a BH is like her first big, big big major collab, I could be wrong I mean she, did misguided, but like for beauty though now, that she has her pallid with a pH I'm pretty sure this was like her biggest make of collapse at 8 I think it's amazing, she made a palette that works for her complexion and she made a palette that she likes and just.

Like I did with like a lab like I don't believe in people making collapse for the sake of it like don't put your name on something that you don't believe in period, when I made my palette, everybody was like we thought she was gonna do neon why. When, have you ever seen me wear like I rarely, do that why would you ever think that hello. The. Action reminds me a lot of why started my channel because when it comes to black road and makeup it's like they either make you really soft or they make you look like a page, out of them at like I don't want to look like eclectic. Just because I have dark skin and really. As some people like to describe as, strong. Features, I don't want to look like an, editorial, piece all the time I want makeup to look pretty so I made a power that's pretty for me thank, you and Carly has done the same needless to say she's, obviously on the opposite side, of this shade, spectrum, as I am and do. I think it's the most world, I brush, is. What. I was about to say is that I love the, color scheme of this palette but it, is definitely a palette, if you are a chocolate girl with myself like you're probably gonna have to use this with something else because as far as like, this, except. For moo-moo looks like a really cute shimmer shade I wouldn't, be able to use most of the mattes in this palette, they would definitely, read, Ashley, I like Stev is that stab receive I'm not sure the shippers on all the way here for like I love mandala. I love Libra, I love Oh a I, love aura I love my angels I love Jodi libras. But like all the shippers are bomb real, quick though I'm gonna highlight using, my Fenty, Paulo, at, me when, did this come out I feel like I don't think I've actually used this in a video yet, oh oh, she oh, she, is, I see honey, so. Pretty though well that being said what Bible might be a little too light so here's here's my module me take my pallet I'm gonna take Pinker, and Bible, and mix them both together I'm gonna start off by sleeping, them both into, my crease area and all over, my eyelid, and the two of these colors together, actually. Are looking real tasty, that's, pretty, then, I'm gonna jump into. Stab. Which, is this this burgundy is bomb like, that needs to be all over my lid ASAP, now look that she just did and she, put like basically stuff like all over her lid and made like a red smoke that's such a Carly look was so pretty so, Amy who I'm gonna sweet step. Over. To. Are pretty that. Is. Gorgeous. So far love, that I'm gonna love stead, even, more once. I sweep, her along, my, bottom lash line. Okay. And then Bible. I'm gonna sleep right underneath. It, to buff and soften, it out that. One's pretty with my eyeliner I'm just saying okay or bra is, really. Doing something to me so I'm gonna take that and, place on the center of my lid. This. Is so pretty, Harley, oh my god aura is freaking gorgeous that is so, pretty, it's like chunky, glittery - I see how she kind of played around with texture, so there's some better a little bit more chunkier, foil II like, mu aura and my.

Angels, And Jodie is just all shimmer, Libra, is all shimmer mandala, looks like it's all shimmer - yeah, these, are a little bit more flat and these have a little bit more texture, on the bottom row but baby aura is, the prettiest color I mean I like all the shimmers but or is my favorite this is so gorgeous I was gonna put glitter on top and. Now. I'm gonna do it even more so, cuz, I just really, wanted to use this glitter I feel like it was gonna look really pretty on top of this look this is from JD glow cosmetics, in the shade X. See, wait. Is this the one that I wanted I think I actually wanted. To use sherbert. Yeah, yeah, you know what I'll use exclusive, and sherbert hold on let me open these show ya how pretty they are they were a little leaky, though the packaging, probably, not ideal for travel, but the glitters are absolutely. Gorgeous so we just gonna beat my at home glitters. Oh no oh no hand me I'm using the exclusive that's, it I made I made this exclusive, was so pretty cuz it has like purple, and gold and champagne in it the camera is just not even doing it justice and then exclusive. Is a little bit more pink a little bit more yellow so, I'm using I. Decided. To use exclusive. On top of orab this is bomb this. Is its sweetie, I'm, ready for my eyes to look like jewels honey this looks gorgeous. Don't worry glad I wore pink again too, damn bad glitter, everywhere girl. Probably, the one time I, regret doing eyes last because, honey so for my lash I'm gonna take level up from unscripted, beauty shots oh my girl crispy, this, is her new lash line her lashes are actually pretty bombed these, there's a banger, throw this. Actually looks a lot like my, drugstore B makeup story I just did, but. In person is telling a different story so I'm gonna stick with that damn on this is dry I need to get. My life together um I'm, gonna take Moss this, lip, lip. Glaze from, Lime Crime I love these things and lately what I've been doing instead of wearing the look that's really dark oh my god lately, I've been doing to like line, my lips for Lu Colusa cause I'll just take a dark brown liquid. Lipstick and line my lips like that I just like the way that that looks. And. These lip lasers are so soft and creamy girl then I'm gonna fill in the rest of my lips using the. Liquid. Matte lips with Too Faced in the name suck, it's I'm not, telling, you that's, what you gotta do I'm just saying that's the name of a lip product I thought this would be a really nice muted, mauve to, go with the eyes and, I was right right, yes. The nail on my thumb did come off I'm gonna hear it these top two gotta be my favorite formulas. For liquid matte lips hands, down Lime Crime really. I did something with these lip glazes I mean to face Ben did some with these but Lime Crime has all these these, all come in basically new colors so love. Them they're so good now I'm gonna finish up with a pink. Then. I'm gonna finish up with the pink gloss this one's from artist to tour his newly, relaunched lip glosses I remember back in the day I was, so obsessed with the Sun sensor, and it's, actually, so this day one of my favorite, and chocolate, nudes for brown girls I think he changed the formula and the packaging, is also different, so it's a new and improved applicator. We, love upgrades, shops artists Couture and the shade that I'm using is shameless. So it's not uncensored, the new this one is the pink nude oh it's. So pretty mmm. There's, a massage, minty, smell this, applicator, really does coat, the, lips really, nicely and. I. Always think I'll say y'all can see my hair I was kind of proud of how I did my hair I, mean.

I Don't know if you watch this video while doing dishes or, babysitting, your kids or helping with math homework I don't know what you got going on in your life I know we all have our own stuff but I thank you for taking some time out of your day just, to spend it with me I mean I know that this kind of ended up being an impromptu vent, session, sometimes we need that I feel like all content. Creators would have a lot less problems if we talk, things out and if we vented, if we see therapist but, for real though I guess the one thing that I want to take away from this is everything. Is, not what it seems, online all that glitters is not gold for. Those of you which a lot of you who do watch me are aspiring, influencers. And content creators from whatever industry, I just wanted to let, you guys know that no, matter what level you're at one, watch, how. You treat, people and how, you talk, to people because, you. May need that person, on your way back down someday and I'm not saying I wish anybody, to go down anywhere I don't not saying anything but watch how you treat people on your way up because if you ever see yourself coming back down you may, need. A hand, here, and there and also I just want you guys to know that like it doesn't get easy once you get to a certain number or once you get to a certain subscriber, count and I, deal. With stuff too I deal with not feeling like I fit into it's, totally normal it's totally, okay, I feel like I'm the most proud of the fact that when you guys come to my channel what you see is what you get and like I say it like I mean it you may not always like what I say but it's me and I stand by it but you know the beauty industry is we're, here to make things look great so unfortunately. There are some people that I've been fans of I get to know them and privately, they're not that nice so, that. Sucks too and that can be really hard to cope with especially. When it's not like a oh you she said she's having a bad day girl like leave her she'll be cool tomorrow you know not like that nobody's perfect I'm not perfect I have my off days too but I mean like people who go out of their way to, be really, vindictive and mean I mean a lot of that does unfortunately, happen behind the scenes from. The. People that you would least expect it from and it, sucks but you deal with it it doesn't, make or break you as a person, what, you got to do is find anybody. Like. Just find anybody, that can help get, you out of that and don't seek validation in, places where you don't meet it because let me tell you something no one ever needed to validate me on my way up and no. One is gonna need to validate me at. This point I mean I'm damn near 4 million can you name a single person who's put me on. No. You can't you absolutely, cannot no, you can't. Okay period, I'm sometimes what needs to be done can, be done with or without a, pack. Of wolves to help you get there there's nothing wrong with wolves wolves are nice animals, but, you know I'm saying crazy cuz I feel like people think just because influencers, live in LA everyone's friends like we're all Barbie dolls that you can just you play with her you. Know. I have my own. Personality. And I'm, free thinking, and like I don't maybe. Mess with that person but hey I'll see you it's branch trip one, takes shots. That's. All I have to say on today's video hopefully, you can relate hopefully, you learned something and hopefully you don't take this F shade because, it's just not she. It's just me talking with my girl and. My boos and, that's that now while I'm over here looking good what, you're gonna do is watch another video support your girl support, content core support black, content, creators and support all of the work that I put into my channel, to keep y'all matched. Thank. You.

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Hi Jackie! Please do a video for beginners showing us the difference between full and medium coverage foundations and what each is good for! Thank you!!

Wanna take shots?! hahahah

How is someone gonna complain about someone else’s skin type wtf

Luv ya Jackie!

So true! I loved this video Jackie thank you for this.

I’m so lost bc Jackie is the only influencer I follow

Girl I love you, swear you’re like my favorite YouTuber!

You are singing my life with your words!! Thank you for making this ❤️ this advice was the mentorship and emotional pull up I needed

Well timed video. Thank you.

We love you Jackie

Girl u make a shit load of money and are able to have a great life based off the beauty community....so ur fitting in somewhere that’s working

There is a “beauty community?” Smh

Did she say , "I used these in the afternoon this morning"? 1:54 I-

Hey guys I’m selling necklaces like the one on my profile picture in silver and gold... holla at me on instagram if interested. IG: erickalexus_

I always love when you splice in Jasmine Masters

Keep doing you! You're doing amazing, you are so genuine and kind and bring positivity to the beauty industry.

You look so beautiful Jackie

I can relate so much with Jackie

But why did I think she was Issa Rae I’m the thumbnail...

That beat though drop an album sis wait a minute

Carli has stayed away from everyone throughout her career lol which fits perfectly with this video

the industry doesn’t deserve Carli ❤️ she’s so sweet

Period! Poo!! Love ya Jackie ❤️❤️

This makeup look is bomb

I am white, I was wondering what you thought about Jaclyn Hill not selling out of her highlighters she formulated for darker skin tone. Do those with darker skin tone not care about using highlighting, or did her her shades miss the mark and they prefer lighter shades? I can't find where she sent a youtube influencer wth darker skin PR? She should have had actual live people with different skin tones applying it on her launch video.

I have the same KP text tone

Hey Jackie! I love your make up looks! I'm an up and coming youtuber so I was just wondering what camera you use?

I have oily skin, oily skin is very slow to wrinkle. I am 59 with only a few tiny wrinkles at mt eyes. Having oily skin is GOOD.

the start was so chaotic lmaooo

I like your personality

Jackie , you will forever be my favorite YouTuber as an African girl it’s hard to find where to fit in but this channel has changed my life from skin to mental health

can we just talk about that mani - French- Cevron- Coffin soo much that could go Wrong here, but Nailed It!


QUEEN! but what powder did you use!!??? SOS

I respect that you stated your truth in a strong way without mentioning a name or idea of who you'd be referring to !

1:54 Jackie :“I used these in the afternoon this morning” Me: “nice.......wait huh

MS. Jackie You are a wonderful being and person inside and out. Thank you for always being your wonderful self. When I was ill, your fabulous upbeat personality lifted my spirits as you do today. Keep being you!

I love your videos because you give us more than a beat face. One day I’ll get my makeup skills up so I know whats actually going on between the life lessons

I just really love you. You are theeeeeee most genuine beauty YouTuber

Your videos always make my day better love the eyeshadow!

This is one of the prettiest makeups that I've ever seen you do.

I literally thought my phone was going off

People complain about ALOT good lord. You look banging though

I don't wear make up. I want to try it because of your make up skills and how healthy your skin looks before and after you wear make up. I need my skin to stay in great health and I believe your tutorials will help me through when I'm ready try make up.

Brown hair on you

can we just talk about that mani - French- Cevron- Coffin soo much that could go Wrong here, but Nailed It!

I love that hydrogrip primer too but it broke me out


Love you Jackie. Despite the hate thrown your way you still manage to keep yourself above it and shine. I know it must kill them each time they see how you're thriving.

Jackie, you are BY FAR my most favorite beauty YouTuber! You are so funny, real, and BEAUTIFUL! ❤️

“Don’t seek validation in places you don’t need it” YES JACKIE PREACH!!!!

Love your channel. Please do more skincare routines for black skin; particularly hyperpigmentation, exfoliating and different types of exfoliates.

You took us to church and gave us a bomb lewk! Thank you for being real and talking about being yourself and not conforming to expectations!

I’ve learned that you don’t always have to feel like you fit in to be in the right place! God has you where He wants you to be! Keep being you Jackie!

I dont fit in anywhere.

Honestly I love yours and carlis pallets together. I will mix up both and it makes really sickening looks.

1738 took me outtttttt

“ Never forger being a good person to the wrong people.” DAMN THAT HIT DIFFERENTLH

17:48 Hilarious!! Love your honesty Jackie!

I'm 3 days out from surgery and you can't have me laughing like this. Your editing is SO GOOD, your comedic timing is bomb, even during more serious chats. You have such a way with words and talking about issues within the beauty industry. It's nice to hear someone being real and honest.

That's so edgy of you. By saying you don't fit in makes you seem exclusive and cool. Nice play. Because you really want to fit in.

This is such a pretty look!!

This was much needed Guidance. Love you Auntie

You’re so funny to me... ♥️

I love you Jackie! Always a class act ♥️

You just gonna put on that eye base and not tell me what it is?


This look is real cute the hair, the eyes....love it.

im doing my face mask as i watch this!

you are truly such an inspiration to so many black women in the industry been watching your videos for years, thank you for the video I even stopped recording because I feel like it's not moving for me the way I thought it would so thank you for your inspiration.

Thank you for posting such an honest and real

I don't travel in groups. Not my thing and I love it

"imma put on some more!!" lmao

Just read the title and was like ‘but you are the beauty community’ as far as I’m concerned

Are you low key ...nodding towards certain influencers who appear to have lost themselves somewhat ? ?? I see who have lost their humility ... and it is ugly .... Y,all know who I am talking about

The little remix of her saying "17" at minute 17:48 still has me laughing

Jackie's lashes always give me life !!! Like they always add to the look, when I wear lashes with my hooded eyes and curly small lashes, I look like a crazy person. Good video as usual :D

I appreciate the convo on the exclusion topic.


The beauty industry seems like the evil step sister of the entertainment industry. The beauty industry are famous bratty high schoolers with no media or artist development training lol

Okay, am I high, or did she do her concealer like 5 times?

Anyone know which Fenty brush Jackie used for the stick foundation?

“If you cant relate, just be ashie”

Jackie Jackie

I love your talks , very inspirational . This is a beautiful finished look . Much love

You don’t need to fit in. You stand out ❤️

Yes glow sis

You not “fitting in” is the reason why people are drawn to you! Stay true to yourself


Idk how jacki can out on ten layers of concealer but if I put on a tiny bit of foundation it’s cake face

I love how honest and real Jackie is. I’m a newer subscriber but I’m so obsessed with her content already

U dont need all that fucking make up ok u damn fine without it.

your skin is popping wtf are these dumbasses talking about

Happy thanksgiving aunt Jackie I am thankful for having a great inspiration motivational auntie like you i love you your the best

I love you and I love these comments. So many like minded people.

Yooo watching sis’s vids always give me good vibes like yessss b

Son that Jasmine Masters edit in your videos gets me EVERY TIME

Jackie I think you are a gifted adult that's why you don't fit in. I am sure you would fit in better with the gifted crowd. You should watch a documentary about gifted people maybe you'll recognized yourself. Most of the gifted people I know are not influenced by the group mentality.

Jackie.... Did you hire an editor? Cause the editing in this is strong.

We need more Jackie Aina and less J***s C*****s

i love the amount of positive quotes i picked up from this video. you are a genuinely kind person filled with wisdom and goodness. the only make up artist i stan

This was so needed as a micro-Influencer. It's so easy to compare ourselves to the more successful and figure out how to stand out yet be accepted. Thank you for being open cause you know how you Leos are! Lol

People have no perspective...success doesnt mean you're "liked" ...yall keep saying "she is the industry" and to me thats the point lmfao. Highee u go sometimes in your field the more u stick out, alone. ESP as a black person. I relate soooo much to this and honestly im FINALLY just feeling ok with being me and not having a large group of friends.

I hollered when I saw Pastor Shirley Caesar!!!!!!!!

Who would want to fit in to the beauty 'community' anyway? HA I know I wouldn’t, it’s a mess.

Just subscribed your hilarious. You'll get where you wanna go! Remember hard work beats talent when talent don't work hard.. x

You handle this in such a mature way I loved this talk!

Love the real ness per usual

Absolutely well put in a nice forgiving way! Lol I'm like F them they ain't stopping shit I got going on. Unapologetically me!

Woke up at 2 am puking in so much pain and decided to take a bath, found this video and so glad i did. Everything i needed with a bomb ass look. Love you jackie

Thank you.

No sweetie, no one is exaggerating. You have that shine shine, shine!!

Girl why are you lying? You know wolves

That beans greens potatoes bit

I love you Jackie!!!!

“Don’t seek validation from places where you don’t need it.”

Im 42 and have one tiny wrinkle between my eyes because im animated when i speak. Lol

U dont fit in cause everyone wants to be where u r. But they dont wanna gv u the props u deserve. They need to show u some respect okay!

This editing is EVERYTHING


I needed to see this. Thanks Jackie, you always get me right together.

You can consider a light diffuser for your lighting situation

You are beautiful and amazing.keep Winning.

Omg!!!! This vid was hilarious

Honestly after that past few days I’ve had at work... I so badly NEEDED to hear this. Thank you Jackie for always looking out for us ♥️

Love you Jackie

I instantly loved your energy!!!!!!!!!!

vids in homeroom!!

November 24 2019 TDJAKES preached “don’t run with the herd”

Always into the content of your vidios, truely an inspiration wish you can come to South Africa in my area

You said “subscribe!” And I sure did!

Jaaaaackie you get on my nerves, girl I fell out the bed @ @ and woke the house up. I was not expecting that LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I totally feel where you are

WHO EVER DOESNT LIKE YOU IN PINK , ILL THROW DOWN WITH!!! You look gorgeous like always!!!


I’m bout to fight these edits !!!

you look so gorgeous! this is a look

LMFAO me ! This is relatable I always wonder why I don’t have a group of my friends my mom doesn’t

Jackie IS her own Beauty community

Girl please. You are the beauty community.

i maybe wrong i dont know who or what... you dont fit or you say you dont.. im not interested in what people think about you.. you are great

you bring good stuff girl.. alot of enjoy you

gosh you're one of my favourite people ever

Never regret being a good person to the wrong people

Brush details?

great look ,great hair,great advice,great channel thanks so much !!!!!!

Can you do a video on lashes? On how to apply / which brands you prefer / dislike?


I’ve been struggling with this exact same thing recently. I appreciate you speaking out on this topic.

Jaaaaackie you get on my nerves, girl I fell out the bed @ @ and woke the house up. I was not expecting that LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I totally feel where you are coming from. I thought people would grow out of that behavior, but at 40 I'm here to tell you they don't. And we gon' be alright!

I feel you so much in this I’ve never fit in but I’ve learned to be OK with that because some people are just not gonna like you and you sometimes you’ll never know why

Honesty is part of loyalty. Blind loyalty is a farse, and pervasive in LA and superficial industries. Relationships are supposed to make your grow, and anyone who is your true friend should cherish and appreciate your opinion.

I think that's one of the reasons why your subs love your channel, you seem to be genuine and relatable. The real gone love it.

But are industry friends real friends? I recently ended a friendship with my bff, she works in the entertainment industry and boy, did that change her. Then I wonder, maybe she was always like that and I totally misjudged her.

I went to subscribe AGAIN! like why can’t I subscribe Twice?!?

I'm watching it at wrk.

Not too shabby. Ha Well said. Keep doing what you do

I felt that. I’m the same way.

Love you just the way you are Jackie!

We see your authenticity and we love it!! You will always be a stand out!!!


You and God are the majority

Queen ❤️

"Don't let someone dim your light simply because its shining in their eyes" Jessica Ainscough

You forgot your eye corner highlight jackieeeeeee

the intro was sooooo chaotic lmaoooo

I’m gonna help y’all out 17:50 , hands down one of the best songs of 2019

Wow!! You stay looking, Gorgeous hun!! Live the whole look

omgggggg your edits are hilarious wtffff

Jackie is sooo pretty!! Omg I can’t

I was at Sephora today one of the girls who worked there said her name was Jackie so as I would I broke out in song n dance of ur theme song. She said that she had a coup

I've been watching you for 8 years, I don't even use makeup, but I'm always here to support and also because you're hilarious. So what if you don't fit in? You've got your own shit. You fit in here. This group and these fans and this channel? This your fit. You find your niche and you handle the hell out of this. Love you!

I felt her when she said “ I’m too free thinking” .. I’m not that type of person to let someone think for me, tell me how to feel about something or someone. I’m just not here for that type of “friendship” or “relationship”. It also seem like people try to throw that loyalty card when you don’t agree with them and I honestly say to hell with those type of relationship because to me that’s more so a person trying to control you than be a friend to you.

such a true topic!! honestly been struggling w this all my life and how to conduct myself in these social spaces without feeling like im not being good to myself. so glad i clicked onto this video, keep doing ur independent thing girl!! xx

**if we seek therapists** but for real being honest with how you feel makes such a difference

Girl, I needed to hear a lot of what you said. I never fit into "groups" either, but rather a few individuals that I connected with. I always felt that something had to be wrong with me since I never had that "group" feeling. I'm happy I subscribed!

You are my favvvv !!

I have a couple of friends like 2. The rest have turned into associates. Like:"Hey girl hey!" And then "ight I'm out". I use to cry wondering why I don't have a lot of friends. I've come to learn though quality over quantity. But I wouldn't be mad if I made more friends though.

Thank you ..

I Love, Love, Love supporting Black content creators and you're one of them Jackie - Stay real.

Jackie you have validated my whole existence

I'm not in the beauty industry, but what you describe is my life. I never fit in. All because I either looked different Or my Aura did not exume follower. So you ask yourself, why why why. And your right..stay true to yourself Thanks for sharing a bit of you Jackie

Well isn't it great that you STAND OUT! You don't need to fit in babe.

Jackie: ....I don't know if you watched this while doing the dishes... Me: ....anna oop (where da camera's at)

How many times did y'all watch 17:50 over and over again

I was at Sephora today one of the girls who worked there said her name was Jackie so as I would I broke out in song n dance of ur theme song. She said that she had a couple girls do that to her & she didn’t know what it meant

What saddened me was when your palette launched, they did not gove you enough time to shine! I feel like they released to many palettes soon after yours HOWEVER you did shine in my eyes, because your palette is BOMB AF! Stay BEAUTIFUL

I can relate so much lol my parents are the same way and I just don’t fit in groups either

Haha I love my oily skin half the time! I love being 41 with no wrinkles, but I hate having my make-up slide off!


This is the most humble ive seen you so far... And I love it!


Wait, so no one gonna talk about the shade 17 ehiiyaay moment? Fire!

Hey sis. I’ve been following you for quite a while, and you’re very inspiring. I have one question though. Do you prefer matching your foundation to your neck or face?

I don’t fit in! I care about it when I’m in the group but when I go home I stop caring

how can you just drop a beans greens remix in the middle of this video loool love it

Loved it

It’s called Jealousy

That beat at 17:50 slapped soooooo hard though????

Lol Jackie I didn’t even realize I was using your palette while watching this. I only use two palettes, one is yours and I love it so much!!!!

Jackie I loved this ❤️

You better stand in your truth Ms Jackie!!!!

Jackie probably wouldn’t remember but like three years ago I commented how I was going through it and her content brightened my day. And she left me a supportive comment that really held me over at that time. Over the years she has continued to be the person for young women that she wanted in her adolescence. Jackie both educates entertains and supports thousands of young women especially girls that find representation through her, and it’s amazing to see. Idk she just has a good heart and it’s good to see how she stays true to being a light in a space with negativity.

Loved this video!

You’re such an icon gosh I love all your videos so much

Hair color is bomb!!

This hair lives right at the intersection of Naomi Campbell and Yolanda Adams, and I am PROFOUNDLY here for it.

In the afternoon this morning

I'm the opposite of my mum I grew up seeing her have a very good friendship circle she is also the youngest and to this day shes still friends with those women from high school! Me on the other hands I've never had long term friendships I don't lick arse and not gonna suck up to people jus to fit in I just go about my life how I want whether that's right or wrong way it's my way lol... I love your videos like this I can always relate think it's because we are leo sister I find myself agreeing to most things you say

Her intro scared my cat soo mucch

its okay!

Never regret being a good person....period

You’re so smart and insightful and well spoken! Subscribed!! Side note: You seem like you’d be fun as hell to drink with!

Much love for you!

Rip headphone users in the beginning

Let me just say, I just recently started watching you and this video made me love you more! ❤️. Added to the queen list

It's not really about anybody. The beauty industry can be cutthroat. I stepped back from salons because of it. I'm glad you talked about this Jackie. I find I don't fit in a lot. But it's ok.

I still LOVE my palette that Carli did with BH cosmetics, this woman knows how to put a palette together!!!

Good, grace-filled rant!

Why fit in when you were born to stand out!

We get it, you late donin life, me too! love you girl!

That thanksgiving remix!!

Kombucha? Brittney Broski has entered the chat...quickly left, come back again.. stayed a minute ,left, walked by a couple times...

I would love to see some unusual collabs between beauty gurus that aren't in the same social circles and are really different from each other. Like I would love to see Nyma Tang and Taylor Wyn do each others makeup. Teach each other the differences of applying makeup and matching your foundation from really deep to really pale. The could bring to light some of the struggles both groups face with makeup companies and shade ranges. I feel like those are the collabs we need to have the facts necessary to really tell the makeup companies to do better.


Jackie I LOVE YOU! you are truly a gem ❤️

When I tell you I SCREAMED when you start singing lololololololol

** the following quote came from a movie warning... "never try to blend in when you were clearly born to stand out" Jackie your bomb!

Watched this while writing my thesis paper so I can graduate. Perfect message, thanks for reminding me it’s okay I don’t fit in everywhere.

Don’t know why I’m barely discovering your channel but I am so glad I did

17:50 is the shit! It’s that shit

This is my favorite look that you have created . I love everything about it.

You are making an impact whether beauty community influencers support you or not. You can stand alone and still succeed

why fit in when you were made to change the industry?

Yass, when you said YOU PULL UP I nodded in content. Girl sometimes these people nowadays forget that there are genuine people who will call them out for who “they” are or act to be. Jackie don’t playyyyyyy!!

1738 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lmfao !!!! i fell TF OUT

I definitely appreciated this video. I loved the makeup look & appreciated your candor. Indeed, how U treat people on your way up, may roll back around on your fall. So true! Love U, Jackie!

I appreciate your smart conversations on your platform.


I gotchu girl......dont worry about them haters

That's my take too with the palette, why will go out of your own way of collabing and doing a palette that has your name on it if you can't get the most of it, just for the sake of being in the clique with the times. Black and Asian representation in the beauty community has a long way to go, but that does not mean we are going to harass everyone that does not go with our vibe. If you don't like it, don't buy it, just don't go out of your way spreading negativity about it.

For years I’ve been feeling like this so thank you Jackie for this video. Love you mamas

I definitely felt this! I now know it's because I don't fit in, because I was meant to stand out! Thanks for being an inspiration Jackie! When I start to feel this way I'll just come back to this video to remind myself that I was born to stand out PERIODT!

Sooooooo.... what about a video reviewing brushes... but imma wait

Omg we saw you do your brows on camera !!!!

Considering how toxic it comes across, its a good thing you don’t fit in!

you fit into the hole in my art

I’ve seen you rock every hair color and KILL it, but there is something about this one. You look incredible.✨

Just watching as I prepare for my video lol!! LAWD Jackie please do my make up and sis your sis real at this one!!!

Loved the video Jackie and loved how the eyeshadow look came together!♥️

Girl you don’t need to fit in when you

Girl.......... Your nails like the high life ❤

You speak the truth, and the truth will set you free. Thanks for always being real with us.

Love you Jackie. Stay pure. This look is my favourite. I love it.

you are breaking barriers jackie! you are such a great role model for girls everywhere!

Yes oily skin is blessing!

I spent so much of my life being the doormat to other people and trying to fit in with them because I didn't want to be weird. I'm 24 now and I'm growing more and more away from that. It's not worth trying to "fit" with other people if that's not the real you. Anyone who's worth fitting with wouldn't want you to be anything different!

I’m glad you don’t conform. That’s why I love you!!! Keep being you Jackie!!!

Sis!!!! You’re winning!!! Periodt.

Just wanted to say... Thank you for being who you are. :)

17:50 i lost it LOOOOL

Thank you for your transparency. Much love xoxo

What shade was the Mabelline stick?

Love you girl!!!

I have been stalking your channel and I've watched all your videos. I literally have posters of you in my room. you are truly my favourite YouTuber and I mean it!

The yams potatoes expert lmfaoooo

1738 remix

this look wooow!

Ctfuu at your editing and facial expressions! I appreciate your videos like these, especially when you share your insight and advice from your experiences✨

Love your nails.

Well said Jackie

dark skin makes makeup look so much more natural no matter how much is on with jackie she could put on 12 concealer shades but me being fair i could soak my ass in some drunk elephant oil for 12 days then i go in with 2 concealers MAYBE and it's like cake cause my skin shade dont let me have no secrets man

And that's what it is!!

I feel you 100% I just feel like I don't fit in whatsoever. my parents also don't have group of friends nor super close friends. I also think being an Aries I also am like that and I know you are a Leo if im not mistaken and fire signs whom have parents whom have that stance , tend to maybe follow suit

I need the products you used!

Omg I literally just did pretty much this exact same eyeshadow look with the carli bybel palette on thanksgiving with glitter and all. We’re on the same wavelength! ❤️

When are you dropping 17 ft greensbeanspotatoestomatoes on iTunes? Also will it be available on Spotify too?

Imagine if that hate comes from your own family? Chile!

The freestyle mix with the “beans, greens, potatoes, tomatoes” added in took me out!

Love you Auntie! Such an inspiration

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