being sad and giving a talk
And. And I just all. The t-shirts pop I also, brought my, Polly. Pocket. Because. I, think it's, cute, for. Decoration, the. Ghosts will the whole vibe or, my brand. Wait, let me open. This okay, so usually what I do is. I place it here. He's. Also like went at when people put lucky. Japanese. Cats what are the claim is. A sign of like good business this is my lucky. Cat, for, good business I also have business cards that people can take with them as. A souvenir and. Yesterday. All the pins, sold. Out you guys I got, my rabbit, but. Today we have stickers and scenes, and these. Are the t-shirts that I have been doing for the past couple. Of months, they're so cute by the way this thing is, working really. Really nicely as you can see, it. Can go really, up and. People, are. Prints and stuff so. They're really handy if you go to a, convention, or, a festival I really. Really recommend them. Welcome. To my bathroom. It's. Been a while since the last time I film here I'm so sorry the, gods. Is, so disgusting, I'm so sorry guys this, is the post mocha States. Right. Now I'm doing laundry and I'm also catching up with a few emails. This, week we have a very hectic week, and this is why I'm not uploading, a video. This week for you, last week because. I'm going to be traveling on Wednesday, and Thursday. To, Greenville. I'm. Going only for one night to. Give a talk and today, this, morning I need to work on the, talk and catch. Up with emails, and laundry. So, yeah. It's going to be a very hectic week, you guys but, we can totally do this I'm. Insanely. Tired, but, I am drinking my second, cup, of coffee right now. By. The way guys I just wanted, to let you know that my, portfolios. Officially. Up can you believe this I spend, most of if not all, Friday. Working. On my portfolio of a case I had to tweak all of the pictures in order to fit this way. A weird, format, and also, I don't know if we can see look, oh my god I, have, never had a website. With my work on it so this is like super. Professional for, me anyway most, of the Commission's. That I have loaded they. Have detailed, description, about what the project was about and the, brief and what the client wanted and also, I uploaded a few sketches and like behind the scenes of all the. Stuff. That I did for example this was for Mia. Mia's. Project, I had to illustrate, 11, the 11 cover, book. Collection. Of The Princess, Diaries in. France in French and, it, was such an amazing like dreamy. Project, for me and I. Had such a nice time working, with the. Publishing company and the agency, and I. Uploaded a few behind the scenes pictures and like. Character. Design and things that I did for them this is one of the covers and. I am so happy how the website turn out anyway please, only if you have time check it out anyway, I'm going to keep working. Now, but I just wanted to share this with you. Hi, guys good morning. God, my face you guys says, it all it's, been super. Long. Can. I say week god, I'm. So tired so, basically, I am, here in North Carolina because. I have to do a talk for, a university. And. Yesterday. At 5:00 a.m. I. Travel. I commuted, from my home, to. LaGuardia. It, was a very pleasant trip, actually, and. When. I was at LaGuardia I got, a text message from, a friend saying that a very, good friend of mine passed. Away yesterday, I know, it's very weird to say this she. Has. Been she's, been battling, with cancer for. God. For so long, and it's. Been a really draining, and like. Heartbreaking. Thing, he. Caught me completely, off, guard despite. The fact that we, have been preparing, for her. Passing, for, a very, long time. And. That. Fact. Also, accentuated. With. The, other fact, that. When I got to the. Airport after, my flight. The. People from the university let. Me know that I was at the wrong Airport I was, not in Greenville, North Carolina I was in Greenville, South. Carolina. So. My. God apparently. This is a mistake that happens a lot but. No one checked, my. Flight, details. Because. I was the one in charge purchasing the tickets and since I've been living less than a year here in the US I had no idea there were two Greenville's. So. I had, to, spend. All day literally. Eight hours, at. Greenville, South Carolina it. Was such, a gorgeous, day but I was crying a lot. I'm not gonna lie guys I've been thinking if telling you of these details or not because I don't want people to feel awkward. About, this and like I know when someone dies is very hard to comfort someone there's, nothing you can say to make it better at cetera so, I'm like should I tell the guys this anyway, yes, I cried alone. By. Myself or, at, a park on a bench for. Like. Easily. Five, hours and then I got myself together, and I, went to.
The. The. Airport, again and then I went to char, lot and then, I float again to. Newborn. And then I'm here it's. Been. So. Draining. You guys I haven't, eaten anything, because. It's, very hard to find vegan, options, if you're, not in a big city am i hungry though I'm not hungry but I need I know I need to eat something and I. Just google and there's a supermarket, near this. Hotel I'm. Just exhausted emotionally, and. And. I. Just want to be with someone that's like the horrible thing I I, want to be with Ed and I am, here all by myself in this hotel room and. It's. It's so hard to deal with losing. Someone when. You're by yourself in. A strange city when, you're about to give a talk, to. I don't know if five people or. 150. People I have no idea how many people are going to come I don't. Think that many people are going to come to talk, because it was meant to be for yes I like my talk was yesterday, so. Now that, they changed, the schedules, it's very likely that that's, not gonna happen anymore, I mean not not. That many people are is going to come. So. Yeah. That's. The thing you guys it's been really. Hard a couple, of days I'm not gonna lie. MOCA was amazing. And I, felt, overjoyed. And over lo but so many people. But. It was a weekend that I had to work nonetheless so, I haven't stopped working since. About like non-stop for three weeks and, I'm. About to cave in, so, as soon as I'm I'm, done. With this talk. I think, I'm gonna pass out. Here. Anyway. I'm going to go out now, to. Buy some snacks, I'm so sorry for talking, for so long, but. I needed to I, felt awkward just. Like pretending, nothing was happening when. A lot of things are happening so. Yeah, guys, my condolences, if you have. Lost someone lately. Because. It's. Horrible. It's. Horrible and. She was really young she, was around my age so. It, wasn't like oh yeah, she leads a amazing. And long, life it was like. No. Um. Anyway. I love you guys, thank you for being here with me on, this, trip I feel. Less. Lonely somehow. Well. Yeah let's go and buy some food. Hi, guys how. Are you. We just came back from. Doing. The talk and. It. Was so nice I, am so happy at this I am. Very tired though I don't know if you can see it. But. Yeah it's been such intense day and now. I think I'm going to, just. Be. On my pajamas, and watch. Stupid. Stuff on Netflix, and pass. Out. I'm living tomorrow and. It's. Going to be a long flight you guys because, I have to go to I, think Charlotte, first and then I have to go to New York I. Can't wait to be back in, the flat with Edie and just be. With someone it's really hard to. Be. In these situations, alone and. But. I'm really really happy I I. Said. Yes and I stayed, here and I did the talk and everybody was so grateful nice to me and. It. Was so nice like it's one experience, more than I can put under my belt and, I'm. So happy that with, my all. Of the things that I learned I am helping future. Illustrators. And. That's really inspiring. So. That's. It you guys it's been such intense couple of weeks but. I'm. Happy I did this I am so happy I did this. Hi. Guys good. Morning. It's still morning, yes. So, today's Monday and I, got. To the office a couple of hours ago but I just, spent most. Of the morning replying. Emails, and, answering, comments and doing admin, work today. To, be honest I really don't want to work but. I decided to come to the office because, this, is my happy place you guys, I, really. Wanted I don't know if I wanted to stay home because. So. Noisy because. My. Home. You guys my flat as you know is very, dark, and, I. Don't feel happy when, I'm home I mean I am happy because I am with the cats and air but. It's not a very cheerful uplifting. Place. To be so. Even, though today I am NOT going to do lots, of work I just want to be surrounded by art supplies and, having. This huge massive window, and being surrounded, by plants and. I. Think today I'm going to just like take it easy, for. The rest of the week I'm going to do the same I am.
Really Second-guessing. If I should. Upload. This video or not very, flattering angle, just notice. Because. I know a lot of people come to YouTube to just like unwind, and watch. Something nice and to. Watch someone having, a, very crappy week it's. Not what, we're all here, for but. At the same time. I. Also experience, like nice things this. Past week especially. Mocha, and. Traveling. I know it's, something that not a lot of people can do so. It. It's been a rough day I mean it's been a rough week, but, it's also being a super. Interesting. Week in the sense. I. Felt. Things. Joy. And, happiness and, immense. Sadness as, well I. Think. Part. Of my. Journey. Here in YouTube. It also shows. My. Sad. Moments. My sad sites, and. I'm. So sorry that you have, to watch this you guys it's, been a crazy month like I got a rash on the street and then. A. Friend. Passed away and I also I. Can't, believe I was part of MOCA you always want to be part of moccasins. I. Was living in Chile and I I saw, the illustrators. I admire the most going, to mock and I'm like someday, I'm going to be like, I'm going to attend MOCA and to finally, achieve that it was a huge deal for me so. Absent. Downs lots of ups and downs so now. Anyway. I just wanted, to share this because, if it's part of who I am and. Every time I meet you guys, you always say you appreciate, how honest, I am and, even though I'm really 10 200, right now to not upload this. I, feel. Like I have to because. It. Will be so disrespectful, of Who I am and to you guys and it, will be so dishonest just, to like wash, everything. Out and say like pretend nothing happened and that's. Not who I am so. Next. Week I am. Going to just like treat myself and, do. I think I'm just going to panic paints next week so. I'm. Really looking forward to next, week's video thank, you so much to everyone. To. All of you guys for being so patient with me especially these, past, couple of weeks in which I haven't uploaded that often, but now, you understand, why. And, thanks. For sticking. Sticking. By I never say and now how to say this but thank you for staying, here. With me like thank, you for being still, here and, supporting, my work. And think, is much to my patrons, they have been so huge. Sweethearts, throughout this, huge. Huge. Deal this. Heartbreaking. Thing. But. Yeah all, of you guys are the best, so, I. Hope we can. End. This. Weird. Period. In which I have been really, having, like a bad stroke like a bad luck.
Thing. So. Send, me all your good vibes you guys because I usually need them and yeah. I love you so much I hope you're having a wonderful Friday, and, weekend ahead and I'll. See you next week, bye guys, bye. Guys.